I lay down on the bed. My head was pounding and my hands and feet were shaking.
I was extremely tired and felt like my eyes would close at any moment, but I held back and checked the phone I was holding in my hand.
"5 a.m..."
It was a time that was a bit too early to call dawn, but could be called early morning.
People who go to work early might be waking up and getting ready for work.
However, I usually fall asleep around this time and wake up late for lunch. I live like that every day without fail.
I wasn't a severe night owl or have a special job.
I was just a repeat student and a gamer who had no answers.
A repeat student who couldn't even study, but a true gamer who played games all day long.
The reason my head was pounding right now was simply because my brain was screaming because I played too many games.
I know that if I continue living like this, I will really screw up my life, but what can I do?
The pleasure I felt while playing games was much more thrilling than the time of suffering for a bright future.
Unlike studying, games gave me immediate and certain rewards the more I played them. The rewards made my brain release dopamine, and my brain had already been soaked in the intense dopamine that games gave me for a long time.
Yes, my brain was not gentle enough to be interested in something as boring as studying. Our tastes were different from the beginning. I liked spicy flavors more than strong or mild flavors. I only eat spicy ramen.
So maybe this is because of genes, genes.
Since I was born with genes that overreact to dopamine, I have no choice but to live a life of gaming according to the implicit and absolute commands determined by my genes!
"… Idiot."
I went to the record search site while feeling disgusted with myself.
The game I play is 'Legend of Legends', or 'Leore' for short.
It's a game that takes about 50 minutes to play a round of everything.
When I checked on a game history search site, I played over 20 rounds today alone.
I tried to calculate how many hours I played by converting minutes into hours, but I gave up.
Calculating the time I've already thrown in the trash only gave me a headache and made my life even more miserable.
"… … "
I'm also anxious about myself like this.
I didn't really want to fuck up my life just because I knew that if I kept living like this, I'd end up fucking up my life.
However, as a true gamer, I just used the game to relieve my anxiety from the gap between reality and ideals.
The more I played the game, the more anxious I became, but I tried to erase my anxiety with the intense pleasure I got from playing the game.
A perfect vicious cycle. A life worse than a mayfly.
The aftertaste was so bad that I wanted to get away from it, but I knew better than anyone that I couldn't.
'Will I be able to study tomorrow? Ugh. No way.'
I thought about studying hard tomorrow, but I soon gave up.
If I had been able to keep all the promises and resolutions I had made, I would have already entered Seoul National University and lived a happy life.
But I'm not disappointed. No, I'm tired of being disappointed.
"..."
Well, isn't that what it's like to be human?
Becoming determined in the morning and frustrated in the evening… .
I was a little faster, so I would just lie in bed, make up my mind, and get frustrated before falling asleep.
Wheeeeeing-.
"Oh, what's that?"
My phone vibrated right before I fell asleep.
I picked up my phone that I had left on my pillow, turned on the screen, and checked why it was vibrating.
The app 'The World is Money and Women' has been installed.
'What is this? I've never installed an app like this…?'
A notification popped up saying that an app I've never heard of had been installed.
'Anyway, the app name is Geuri. The World is Money and Women?'
I couldn't help but exclaim in admiration.
What kind of era is this?
Isn't it an era of gender wars where men and women fight dozens or hundreds of times a day?
In such a battlefield, there's an app that's so blatantly drawing aggro with such a shameless name.
It was clear that the app developer who named it this way, or the app store manager who didn't reject it and registered it, were out of their minds.
Still, I couldn't help but be interested.
In a few days, I'd be sued by feminists and the app would disappear, but I wanted to check what the app was before that.
I pressed the app icon and launched it.
Boom-.
Hi, you piece of shit.
Don't you want to change your life now?
Can I help you?
[Yes/No]
Messages appeared in white letters on a black screen.
I couldn't help but feel a pang inside as I read the messages that appeared.
Fuck-ass.
There were few words that described my life as well as Fuck-ass.
'Fuck... How did you know? You're a bad kid...'
I looked around to see if there was a camera installed in the room for no reason, and carefully pressed the button that said [Yes].
I wondered what help the app with its creepy insight would give me.
Boom-.
Good choice!
I'll give you a reward.
Is 1,000,000 won enough to start with?
[Web sender. Sehan Bank. Deposit 1,000,000 won.]
"… "
I silently launched the Sehan Bank phone banking app.
I thought it was a joke, but when I saw the bank message that a million won had been deposited, I started to get goosebumps.
The phone banking app finished loading, and my account balance appeared on a white background. I couldn't come to my senses.
Account: 1,387,945.
There really was a million won.
I didn't do anything. I just touched it once and there it was.
I lost all sleep. I sat up.
With trembling hands, I launched 'The World is Money and Women' again.
How about receiving money?
Isn't it more thrilling than your favorite game?
"It's a carrot. Thank you, hyung. Really."
I expressed my sincere gratitude as I watched the message that appeared.
I wasn't ashamed at all. I could have done anything I wanted to, receiving a million won for one touch.
No, if I wanted, I could have sucked the app developer's toes.
Yes, Minjun.
The world is all about money and women.
That's all.
But people try hard to ignore it.
They say there are greater, higher values than that.
Love, friendship, honor, morality. Things like that.
You know how insignificant those things are in reality, don't you?
In reality, it's always just money and women. Right?
[Yes/No]
Bam-.
I touched the screen without hesitation.
Of course, my finger pointed to [Yes].
It was an extreme thought, but I somewhat agreed.
And it was an extreme, selfish, app that gave a million won for one touch.
I agreed with the thought, but it was the right decision to suck up everything I could.
I could put aside my shallow thoughts and opinions in front of money.
'Well… Is this proof that the world is all about money?'
You really are a decent person.
I like it.
I am the 'god of money and women.'
As my follower, will you dye the world with money and women?
[Yes/No]
If you choose [Yes], you will have the duty to dye the world, which has endlessly coveted money and women and stimulated people throughout your life, with desires for money and women.
If you fail to fulfill your duty, it will be considered an act of apostasy and you will suffer terribly in the afterlife for eternity.
"… Oh my. Can this even be considered a duty?"
I picked at the message that came to mind and laughed.
I don't know who the app developer is, but it was clear that he was someone who mixed money to the point of doing something crazy like this.
That's why I don't know much about reality.
"What on earth should I do? The world is already full of money and women."
Bbung.
I touched the screen again without a single moment of hesitation.
My finger was naturally pointed to [Yes].
Congratulations on becoming my apostle. Minjun.
Before I open up all the features of the app to you,
I've prepared a tutorial to help you slowly adapt to the app's capabilities.
I'll start the tutorial.