Who Blocked My Memories?

Mirelah;

"She's quite beautiful. "

An unfamiliar female's voice drifts through the haze, but I feel too weak to open my eyes.

"Beauty that's a waste. "Another voice scoffs, and my mind starts reeling. Struggling to remember where I am.

"Why would you say that? "The first voice demands in a whisper, and I begin to struggle. 

I try to open my eyes… To move, or speak. But my body remains unresponsive. Every part of me feels heavy and my body pays no mind to my will.

I can hear all they are saying, But I can't react. I can't even look at them.

"Isn't her beauty wasted? "The second voice retorts. "She must have the worst luck in the world. I heard she's the sister without any powers. "She continues, and I want to yell at her. To tell her that I'm not some broken doll that needs her pity, but I can't for the life of me move a muscle.

I hear the first girl gasp, and then her voice comes again.

"Really? Her father gave her away to marry Prince Kealith even though she's so fragile? That's cruel. "She says, and I stop struggling. 

They're talking about me, and clearly, they don't know I can hear them. I could get some vital information from this. 

"Exactly! And as if that's not bad luck enough, she has been sent here when his curse is worsening

. "The second voice continues, her tone laced with pity. "Heaven alone knows if she'll survive this. It's only her first day, and look how wounded she is. "She adds, and I struggle to make sense of her words.

I'm wounded? Why can't I feel any pain? And she mentioned a curse. Kealith is cursed!? What curse? 

"I know it's bad, but what if her marriage to Prince Kealith is a good thing? Today is the first time he ever calmed down on his own. He didn't have to be tied up or sedated. "The first voice replies, and I feel my heart begin to riot in fear.

His curse is so bad they usually have to tie him up or sedate him!? 

"I once overheard Prince Kealith telling his parents that if they didn't get her to be his bride, he wouldn't take the throne, and he wouldn't marry anyone else. "She continues, and now all I feel is confusion.

Take the throne? Kealith is the seventh son. Why would he be the one to take the throne? What about Darven? And the other brothers before Kealith?

"I know that. But they initially refused. Why did they suddenly agree? "The second voice questions, and before I can process the information, a sharp knock sounds at the door, silencing the ladies. 

I hear the door open, and I hold my breath when I hear Queen Velnara's voice.

"How is she? "She questions, and I listen to her footsteps move closer.

"She hasn't regained consciousness, Your Grace. "The first voice replies, and I slowly release my breath. Why can't I move?

I suddenly feel a hand on my head. 

"She must still be in shock after seeing Kealith Like that. "Queen Velnara says, and I feel the urge to scream. Panic is building inside me. I want to communicate with her. To tell her that something is wrong with me, and that I can't move, but nothing works. I can't even move my eyelids.

"Let's leave her to rest. Come back to check on her in a while, and let me know when she's up. Leave the fresh clothes on the bed. "Queen Velnara orders, and the maids chorus.

"Yes, Your Grace. "

I listen to their footsteps fade into the silence, and I want to reach out. Look, twitch… anything! But no part of me is moving.

 I listen to the door shut, and in that isolation, my panic turns to terror. What's going on?

I focus on my fingers, trying to make them move, or even twitch, but I get nothing. I try to move my lips, but the result is the same. Nothing! With panic burning in my chest, I focus everything in me to break out of this… paralysis.

I begin to fight to just make a sound. Pushing, begging and praying for any form of movement, and finally, my body jerks. My eyes fly open…. and I suck in a sharp breath of relief as I sit up.

I look down at my body and see bruises on my arms. Evidence of everything I've endured today. From my desperate jump from the carriage to falling with Kealith down those stairs… My skin is proof that nothing that happened today was a dream. Even though I wish the whole day was.

I sigh before finally looking up again, and I find that I'm in a king-sized bed, in a massive red and gold-themed bedroom. This is nothing like my room back home. This room is more… Serious. More… intense with very intricate decorations. From the chandelier, to the tarpestry, to the furniture…. everything screams luxury and intimidation.

I take a deep breath, and the rich, foreign air fills my lungs. It's night already. Everywhere is so silent. It's nothing like back home. By now, Meadow and I would be chatting away about anything and everything our mind touches.

Here, I'm all alone. I wonder how she's doing.

I fling the blanket off my body and swing my feet off the bed. As my feet touch the ground, I exhale in satisfaction as the cold soothes my bare feet.

I was scared I had suddenly lost all control of my body. But thank God I'm fine. Those were probably the most terrifying few minutes of my life.

Across the room, I spot a tall mirror, and I rush to it. I stare at my reflection and touch my face. In one final attempt to check if this is all some nightmare or my new reality.

As my fingers press into my cheek I shut my eyes, thanking the goddess that I'm okay. But not sure if to be happy or sad that all this is real.

It is real. I'm not dreaming or in some kind of trance. I really am here, and just a few seconds ago, I was temporarily paralyzed. How?

That has never happened to me before. Was it stress? Did I hit my head when Kelaith and I fell?

My mind immediately runs to kealith, and I freeze. Of all the things I could remember, the first thing that comes to my mind is his beautiful eyes. They looked scary… but they were also… breathtaking. The prettiest things I've ever seen.

I then remember his words and the engine of my mind kicks to life again.

 I'm keeping my promise… Are you happy? 

What did he mean by that? Rhael also said something fishy back home. He said Kealith and I planned this. 

Then there's that memory. The one that forced itself into my mind when Kealith held me. Was that Kealith in the memory? The memory floods my mind again, and I can almost swear that it's Kealith. 

I try to remember what happened before that memory, and if I have known Kealith before now, but sharp pain shoots through my skull. Causing me to grab the dressing table. 

What is this pain!? 

I whimper as I crumble to the floor holding my head. It feels like a warning. Like I'm not supposed to remember what I'm trying to. I shut my eyes as the pain grows, and finally, it starts to subside. 

What's going on with me? When did this start? This is the second time I've felt such pain because I tried to remember something from my past.

Now that I think of it… I can't remember anything from before I turned 12… How did I never realize this?

Have I… lost some of my memories? Is Kealith part of those memories? Did we… Did we date when I was younger? Or did we promise to get married to each other? It looks like it… But why can't I remember? And how exactly did I lose my memory…

I begin to feel weak again, and I gulp. Every time I try to find answers in my mind, it's like there's a wall stopping me. First, it was the pain in my head, and now, it's this weakness.

Earlier, when the memory surfaced, I lost consciousness. Like my body couldn't handle it.

Even now, it's as if some invisible force is holding me down. Physically blocking me from remembering some things.

Like a wall inside my mind.

A wall someone put there…

But who? And why??