Butterflies (15)

Andreas was still driving

I want to hear songs , this ride is so boring I said

David - ik it is really boring but , Andreas never drive while listing music more like he does not like music.

Huh, what an weirdo.. I said

I have a better option.. we can talk . David said

Andreas- you can play songs ..

What? Really I was excited..

You are getting happy like an 2 year old child who is getting a candy he said smiling

Yeah , you can think that too. I said

I tried to connect my phone with car speaker but I was unable to.

Andreas - you'll play music when we will reach? He laughed..

I want to , but i bluetooth is not connecting for some reason I said

Dumb child he smirked...

David - give me your phone I'll help you..

Andreas - i have an better idea, here take my phone it's already connected..

Huh? When didi you??? I asked in surprisingly.

Just now he said .. and smirked

Amy - are you really giving her your phone?m seriously Andreas you just meet her and you gave her your fucking phone and we here? You never let us touch it ..

This is my fucking phone , she is my fucking friend, it is my fucking decision. Which part do you not understand amy is too hard? He said

I was quite happy listing this and I was Trying hard not to smile but i couldn't stop myself..

I started to play music...

It was Just few mins when Andreas phone started to ring it was

"Atass ❤️".... Calling 📞

I was shocked he has a heart infront of a girl name?? Huh?

Who is it ... He asked while driving.

It is someone Atas .. I said

He suddenly stopped the car by the roadside.

Snatched phone from me and got out of the car..

( Wtf was that? Who is she ? Huh? One of his side chick? David was talking about he doesn't know how to treat girls'??? He have a girlfriend already?? Why was he so possesive about the phone call.. why do I care anyways we are just friends. But what was that.. )

I was overthinking about things when after 7-8 mins he came back ..

He was opening the gate of the car

I heard him saying you too...

( I am right, he have a girlfriend already the fuck?)

My mood was spoiled I wanted to punch someone maybe him ? .

Here take it he said giving me his phone back

We are about to reach i find feel like listing music anymore.. i made an excuse

You sure? He asked

Yeah let's go... I said

( Maybe he have a girlfriend already I should not come close to him it's not appropriate. I should know my limits and I should not cross boundries)

I was still thinking about things when we were back near the ship..

I got off the car as quick as possible..

And ran toward Janvi and Kalix and Eman..

Janvi- woh woh woh girl watch out you'll fall

Kalix- for me

Hahaha very funny I said

What's wrong? Why is our face so low ? Kalix asked me

( Even he noticed but Andreas didn't wow)

You really notice me alot I said

You don't know yet.. he said

From corner of my eye i can notice Andreas gazing at us..but i choose to ignore his presence. He doesn't own me I have my life Kalix was friend before him i should prioritize Kalix and Andreas even have a girlfriend.

Me and Kalix kept talking about things...

We were already in ship and i was in my room.

I saw Andreas bracelet maybe it feel from his hand when he was in my room

I started to think about those moments when he was in my room .. and tears feel from my eyes.. why? I don't know why.. i don't like in a romatice way but he cared for me alot I mean idk I was still crying

When someone knocked on my door..

I got up happily i know it was Andreas it's him .

I opened the door but instead it was Kalix..

Kalix- you were crying?.

Huh me? No ofc not I said

Don't lie i can see your eyes you were crying but why??? He said

You miss home?? He said

Yes I miss home partially i didn't lie i miss home not India but my home here in Phillipines...

He hugged me I didn't hug him back i don't want too.

But I saw Andreas standing a far from us .. I can see that he was looking at me and Kalix.

That made me nervous like I am cheating on him..

I pushed Kalix with lil strength..

Sorry , but i thought you wanted it Kalix said

Please next time ask for my consent..I said

Yeah , sorry ig kalix said

Why are you here tho? I said

Ohh I was revising for exams after vacation..

I wanted notes from past year book of Anotmy can i borrow yours?? He said

Yeah sure you can .. I said btw come in

He came inside he took book and he was talking about the same topic for 10 mins and then he left the room..

I must say that Kalix is really scroller when it comes to study he never compromise..

I showered because I really wanted to I was so done with the day it was like rollar coaster ride..

I was hungry so I get downstairs to eat dinner

Mickle and David were already eating

Eman and janvi were there too

Kalix was not there ik he was busy with study..

Olivia and Amy were talking about something

My eyes scanned the room i was looking for Andreas but he was not there... Must be talking to his girlfriend..

Janvi- baby you here come let's eat..

So corny, I said laughing

Ofcourse since you are so single i thought I should flirt with you she said teasing me

Mickle - you sure she is single??? He said

( Why would he say that?)

A 100 and 10% sure janvi too said yelling and laughing

We were eating...

Mickle- David where is Andreas??

( I was sitting a little far but I was able to hear there conversation and honestly this was my fav topic)

He is busy David said

Busy doing what? Mickle said

He is smoking, he is on the roof David said

What again? After long time . I was thinking of going in his room but i guess I should not mickle said

Ofcourse you really should not maybe he is really stressed he almost smoked after 3 months.. David said

Why what happened?? Somthing serious?? Mickle asked

Attasha called him today ... David said

Fuck again?? Did she ??? Mickle said

Yeah she did David said

You asked him about there conversation?? Mickle was curious..

No i didn't, i wanted to but i couldn't he was already angry yk he would have taken all anger on me. David said

Boy ? He'll hurt himself mickle said

Ik but i cannot help it none can David said

It was an serious conversation and who is Attasha? Why are the concerned about Andreas after phone call??

What's happening..

Idk there conversation made me uneasy now I was in no mood to eat I took few bites and started to walk toward my room

Janvi- you already done?? You barley eated anything

I don't feel like I said

David - hey rose what's wrong are you ok? You should have a proper diet..

I am ok, i don't feel like eating i said

Mickle- maybe because today Andreas is not eating with you is it ?? He said teasing

As if I care ... I said and walked back to my room( I do care maybe)

I took my books out and started to revise but I was unable to..I was unable to focus...

So I closed my book and I went out on the balcony..

I started to talk to myself

- Who is Attasha?

What does mickle and David mean by there conservation? And why do I care ? Why is it affecting me too much... Why I want Andreas here with me rn.

Why do I feel like crying..i forced myself to cry so that I can feel good ..I sat down now it was complete silence..

When I started to hear come weird noice on the roof top .. that scared me at first but then I remembered David and Mickle conversation Andreas was there...

I wore slippers and started to run toward roof top..

I was hoping and praying Pls god it's not him pls..

When I reached there.. I saw 6 empty bottles of alcohol and few ciggerates ..

I saw blood droplets all over the floor and I saw how red Andreas face was.. his hands were red full of blood anger was visible on his eyes and yet he was still punching The pole infront of him..

I ran toward him i yelled his name

ANDREAS STOPP!!!!!

ANDREAS PLEASE STOPPPPPPPP!!!!!!

ANDREASS YOULL HURT YOURSELF PLEASE FOR GOT SAKE PLEASE STOP..

He was. Not ready to listen me looking at his condition he made me cry..

While crying i yelled

ANDREAS FOR MY SAKE FOR ME PLEASE STOP!

He suddenly stopped.. I looked at his hurt hands they were lifeless.. I wanted to die watching his red hands full of blood .. he was hurt but I was feeling the pain too much pain

I was still crying and holding his hands

Why did you do that to yourself? Why? What's wrong with you Andreas.. I said

( I was mad at me for some unknown reason, i hated him alot but i cannot see him in pain i cannot see him hurt. I am a doc its my profession I cannot have an weak heart i cannot cry for everyone but looking at his hurt hands I wanted to scream loud)

Don't cry that's all he said..

Let's go come with me ... I said

No , just fucking leave let me be he said

I won't leave you are coming with me let's go i said again

He holded with those hands full of blood and stains were on my shirt

Why? Why are you doing this to me? Why do you keep on acting like you care? When we both know you don't. Why am I feeling this for you???? I already have alot in my life I cannot take another person. I cannot protect you...I can't my life is fucked... He said yelling

I holded his face with both my hands ..

Ask youself again I don't care ???

We were both Silent now..

Let's go you are coming to my room , we are treating your wounds I said

If that is your concern this is nothing new to me I can manage and I won't go there, it's your and Kalix personal space.. he said

Shut up Andreas he came to take a book..

Book? Never knew you give books to people if they hug you.. hug was the fee right?? He said

It's nothing like that I'll explain everything but first' come with me .. I said

I don't care i don't want your explanation it's your life anyways do whatever you want to do.. he said

Andreas i am feeling cold please let's go i said

He took a look and started to walk with me

Once we were at my room I motioned him to sit on the bed ..

First i cleared his hands with water , then I applied a chemical to avoid infection, mainly it have alcohol and when it's used on wounds people flinch they feel pain but Andreas was sitting like an lifeless person like he does not feel any pain.. then I used bandage in both is his hands..

We were both Silent the whole time

Done right?? Let me go know he was about to stand up..

No, you'll sleep here I demanded him

Huh? What why? He asked

Don't get surprised like it's your first time sleeping here plus everyone knows about your anger what if you do this again? After getting out of the room i said

It's none of your busssniess... He said

I grabbed his shirt you are not leaving and it is my business I said

I looked at my shirt it was full of stain of blood so was his.. his mouth smelled bad like alcohol and strawberry ciggerate..

I grabbed a mouth freshener near the table ..

Use this your mouth smell like alcohol.

He gazed at his hand how can I?.

You treated my hands like I broke my bone it's like plaster how will I do my work??

I'll help you with everything but just don't open it please. Atleast for next 24 hours don't ok?

Wait I'll help you , i opened the cap of mouth freshener and helped him .

Change your shirt it's stained he said..

Yeah , but first promise me you won't go? I said

Ohh god so childish, i won't now go change fast..

I feel sabotaged he said

Idk why but I smiled listing to it ..

I went inside the bathroom changed my shirt with a sec ....

You are really fast... He said

I am I know btw are you wearing something inside your shirt? I asked him

Huh? What kind of question is that? He said

Your shirt is stained to if you are wearing something I'll open your shirt I said

Yeah I am .. he said

Alright.. i walked toward him and helped him open his shirt while opening his shirt his sando which he was wearing inside was lifted too

I could see a weird red mark on his back it was like he feel or maybe beated??

I opened his shirt with no shame like he is mine ..

His black sexy sando was visible.. his forearms were so sexy he was really bulky his body I was too lost looking at his veins on his hands his forearms..

Hey don't Stare like that he said

I - I was not shut up I said

Can you explain youself??? Wtf were you doing? Andreas how can someone hurt themselves? I asked him

Listen, rose you know nothing about me never ask me that alright? And can I sleep now he said

Ofc you can he said ...

I switched off the lamps and turned over my back toward him .. he was lying straight..

After 10 mins when I looked back i thought he is sleeping but he was still looking at the wall..

I got up on the bed ...

Andreas i whispered..

Hmm?? He said still looking at the roof..

Are you not okay? Something is bothering you? Pls take a good sleep i said

Go sleep don't think too much still facing the roof he said

Come here .. I said

I finally looked at me

Huh what? He said

Come here I motioned him to come close to me my head was tilted

He came close to me ...

Look at me he looked straight into my eyes.

Lift your head he did as I said..

I asked him to rest his head on my arms...

Are you sure. He asked

100 % do it I said

He did as I said I came more close to him i creased my hands. On his eyes closed his eyes with my hand

And fir atleast an hour i played with his head/hair and even gave him a massage so that he can feel little relaxed and he can sleep ..

And after doing that for an hour it helped he was finally sleeping i gazed at his inocent face

[ There is something he have gone through a normal person can never have this much anger inside home it's not possible, the reason for his anger is maybe some past trauma. Something have happened to him.

But what can be that somthing? How can someone hurt themselves to this level one thing I was sure about that maybe he is suffering from somthing or maybe he had suffered. I always knew he is not a bad person he was made bad .. ]

Thinking about this i feel asleep.....

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