End of The Beginning of The story (4)

The tension in the room and between us started increasing. while Serena remained silent, as if she had no intention of replying or convincing me. So I felt heart broken and betrayed.

finally, the weight of the situation and her silence began to crush our relationship, and start to revealing deeper cracks that were previously hidden.

after a while, I broke the silence because I could no longer able to bear the silence in that situation, especially infront of her. And said :

Chandu : with lower voice " just... Just tell me the truth, Serena. Please. even if it hurts, just tell me. Why did you go with Damian last night and why lie about going to the birthday party ? how long have you been cheating on me?"

Serena : looked at me, " chandu , I can't explain everything right now. Even if I did, you are not in a position to listen to my words, because you have already decided I cheated on you. So please leave me alone."

Chandu : can't explain? is it rocket science? Something I can't understand ?

Chandu: "then make me understand! Explain it, explain it properly so I can understand. I want to hear your explanation of why you went with Damian last night."

Serena looked at me but didn't say anything, just ignored me looking at other side, as if I no longer existed .she just looked out the window.

just like that, the silence between us stretched, and I started to feeling annoying. Then said :

Chandu : " I can't do this anymore, Serena. I can't live like this, constantly questioning everything. I need to trust you, but I can't because whenever I think of trusting you, the image of you and Damian going inside the hotel continuously comes to my mind and make me angey and make me feel betrayal.

After hearing this, Serena was still silent, as if she didn't hear anything and don't care even if I tried to tell her anything .

I walks towards the door and held the the doorknob. And I was still expecting Serena w stop me and ask me to stay. But Serena reminded same, looking at the window as if she had no intention of even glancing at me . 

then I said :

Chandu :" I'm going to stay at a friend's place for a while. I need some space. We both do."

I left , closing the door behind me, and the sound echoed in the entire room. As if that door had not been closed for so many days.

A few weeks later, I came back home with the divorce letter ,intending of divorce Serena.

I went inside the house and sat infront of Serena, who was scrolling something on her mobile. Then I put the divorce paper in front of her and said:

Chandu : " I've thought about it, Serena. I have thought about it a lot . And I don't see any other way forward."

she remained silent and didn't even ask me. what I was saying and don't even try to look the paper I put infront of her. She was just staring at me as if she never saw me before. Then I prepared myself to say what I intend to tell her.

Chandu : " I don't see, that I have a choice. We are living in a different realities now. I can't pretend anymore . I need to move on.

when I said these words, I saw a slight change in her face. As if she is starting to listening my words. But it seemed like, at that time I am completely broken or not in the state to care about her expression.

So I said what I wanted to say without holding back.

Chandu : "Serena, I want to divorce you , I can't live with you anymore. Especially when I know that you're cheating on me with Damian."

the moment I said those words, she changed her expression. And told me :

Serena : " what? what are you talking about? Are you kidding me? Do you think divorcing is some kind of child's play were you can marry and divorce Whenever you want? Don't even dare bringing "divorce" word into your mouth.

I was not speaking because I am afraid of you. its because I don't want to harm our relationship even more, especially when you've already believed that I cheated on you. I wanted to wait for a while, so I could explain everything. And just because I went to late night party that doesn't mean I am cheating on you. "

I heard those words from her with her rage as if she was trying to say, she was holding back herself because of my misunderstanding.

And I think that was the moment when my pride as man and husband took over me, and made me take those impulsive decision and made me run. 

I shouted at her saying: 

Chandu: "what? do you think I will fear you? Just because you told me those words with rage . No, never I will never listen to you. No matter what."

I said these words looking into her eyes.

Chandu : "I am going to divorce you. stop it if you can. "

She smiled, and said, "do you think you can live comfortably, just because your going to divorce me? Do you think I won't do anything if you divorce me. Remember the alimony. if you divorce me, i will ask for your entire property as my maintenance and I will make you suffer for your entire life time. Asking more and more money for maintenance, you will have to come and beg me to stop and lick my foot for forgiveness "

She said, these words to me as if she was trying to make me stop filling divorce paper. And continue our married life. But I was already taken over by my pride. So I was not in the state to listen to her. And said :

Chandu: "ah, alimony. do you think you can scare me by bringing up alimony? Listen to what I am about to say,

I challenge you, i won't give you a single penny after the divorce. And what you said I will beg and lick your foot forgiveness? That will never going to happen, not even in your dreams. remember that."

when I was telling these words, i don't even know what I am doing. I just said everything that came to my mind like I can do anything probably these is what made me running away from my home country. 

And this is the end of the beginning of the story.