chapter 12

LYXARIA

This is too sudden. How am I going to cope with all of this. I'm not even ready to be a wife. 'heck' I don't even know how to be a wife. I watched as Gerald my father, Anna and Lyra bid Leonardo farewell and left the house.

I breathe a sigh of relief when I heard their car drive out. Being in the same room with those heartless people is like being stuck in a dark room.

I continued staring into space. I feel so sad and angry. Angry at the fact that I don't even have a say in my own life. This is so unfair.

I heard footsteps but I did not bother to raise my head because I knew who it was.

"You have been quiet ever since" I heard him say. Taking his seat beside me.

I kept quiet. He's talking as if all of these are not his faults.

Maybe it's my fault. If only I had not fallen for him the first time we met and kept on staring at him, maybe he won't have had interest in me.

This is so messed up. My life is so messed up.

"What's up with you?" He asked me again.

I looked away not wanting to answer any of his questions.

I thought he was going to walk away and let me be.

I felt his cold hands on my jaw and the next thing I knew he turned my face back towards me. Keeping my head high so that I can look into his eyes.

His cold blue eyes stared into me. I could see a tinge of anger resurfacing in them. Anger for what. I should be the one getting angry here. Not him.

"When I talk to you,you answer me." He commanded.

"Why do I have to do as you say just because you commanded it?" His grip on my jaw tightened a lot and I could already feel my bones about to break.

I refused to show him any weakness but a little wimper escaped my lips.

"Why do you always want to challenge me". He asked me. His grip on my jaw released a little when he saw I was on the verge of tears.

"Just let me go. I can't even decide how my own life is going to be. You made a decision about me getting married without informing me. Did you ever ask me if I was going to marry you? Why can't I have a normal life like every other normal girl!" I ranted. His hand left my jaw and I quickly ran upstairs. I could feel my heart tearing into a thousands pieces and it felt so horrible.my life can never be normal.

I laid on the bed with my face on my pillow and I cried. The pillow had smelled like Leonardo. It was a scent of fresh flowers along with his strong masculine scent. It felt heavenly. Me sniffing the pillow made me cry even more. This was the pillow he slept on when he slept in my room last week.it still smelt like him.

I don't know for now long I stayed there before I finally succumbed to sleep.

LEONARDO

I could not think straight. After Lyxaria had an outburst and ran to her room I have not been able to think straight. I went into my home office to see if I can get some work done.but Everytime I try to think of something the memory of her crying and ranting popped up in my head.

I thought she wanted to marry me. I actually thought that she was just too overwhelmed that was why she ran away. I guess that was not the case. She actually did not want to marry me. I stayed like that for a long time staring into my computer screen that has already gone to sleep due to inactivity on the desktop.

I heard the door clock open and I saw my mom step in. Ever since my mom divorced my father she has been happier than ever. I saw her step into my office and close the door. She was the only one that could enter my office without permission. I won't mind if Lyxaria comes in too.

"Why are you here mother?" I asked her as soon as she sat down.

"That's a nice way to greet your mother, Leo. Anyways i am here to meet my daughter-in-law. Where is she?"

" How do you know about my marriage?" I asked her. Confused on how she knows.

" Oh please.i was once the Mafia queen of course I'll know." she scoffed.

" And your father has been going around telling everyone the king is off the list." She said with a mocking tone.

" I'm not so sure about her getting married to me. She does not seem so happy with me marrying her " I told my mother. She was the only one I had ever felt comfortable telling everything to. I won't show my weakness to anybody but my mom has seen me in my worst so there was no need hiding from her.

" What do you mean?"

" She seems upset about getting married to me.when I told her about the wedding date she became angry." I explained.

" How did you tell her Leo." She asked me. Looking deeply into my eyes.

" When her father visited this morning." I saw my mother's eyes darken alot. Her dark blue eyes that clearly reflects mine stared into me.

"Did you even chase her?" She continued.

"What do you mean?" I was starting to get confused.

"Did you ask her out?"

"Her father has already told her that she's going to marry me. There was no point asking her out."

"I can't believe you." She face palmed herself. My mother only does that when she's disappointed which is almost never.

"What's going on?"

"I guess staying with your father really did rub off on you." She said shaking her head.

I wanted to get offended but why should I when what she said is true.

"You can't force a girl to marry you simply because you can. I was forced into a marriage with your father and it was the worst years of my life.He treated me more like an asset he wanted to acquire not like a woman he loved. Look Leo, why don't you ask her what she wants.i'm sure she's just a simple girl who was dragged into this dark world just like me. Treat her like a woman not an asset okay?"

She stood up and walked to the door.

" I brought cookies for my daughter-in-law and I'm going to give it to her. I don't care how you are going to get her."

She stepped out of the door and banged it shut.

I stared straight at the white wall of my office.

I did not even notice I was doing the one thing I hated the most. Treating women like pieces of trash.

I had to think of a way to make it up to her and fast.

The wedding is in five days and I'm going to marry her.