Chapter 18 - Unraveled

The days blurred.

Morning. Evening. Night

Time passed, but it didn't feel real.

I stopped keeping track.

Somewhere in the mess of it all, I stopped answering texts. Stopped showing up to lunch. Stopped noticing when people called my name.

I just… existed.

The whispers never stopped. Vee's name. Over and over. Like a song stuck in my head, like a curse I couldn't shake.

"Did you hear? It was an accident—"

"They say she tripped—"

"I heard she was pushed."

That one stayed.

Because it was true.

My stomach twisted, but I ignored it. Just like I ignored the way my hands trembled when I held my pen. Just like I ignored the pounding in my skull when I went another night without sleep.

I told myself I wasn't hungry. That the nausea meant I didn't need to eat. That my exhaustion wasn't a problem. That everything was fine.

It wasn't.

I knew it wasn't when I caught myself standing outside Vee's dorm, staring at the door like I expected it to open.

It wasn't when I walked into class and saw someone sitting in her seat, laughing like the world hadn't changed.

It wasn't when I reached into my bag and found—

A bracelet.

Shiny. Metallic. Beautiful.

Vee's bracelt.

The light in her eyes when she first bought it flashed before mine. She was so full of life. I could still hear her swear she'd always wear it, always keep it with her. And then—just to scare her—I hid it. Never gave it back. Not because I wanted it for myself, but because... it meant so much to her that I wanted a piece of it too. A piece of her.

My breath caught as the memories flooded.

The room pressed in on me.

I gripped the bracelet tight it dug into my skin.

I swallowed hard, shoving the bracelet deep into my pocket like it would stop the ache in my chest.It didn't.The walls felt too close. The air too thick. My pulse hammered, and suddenly, I couldn't sit still.I shoved my chair back. It scraped against the floor, too loud, too sharp. A few heads turned, but I didn't care. I needed to move.

Out.

Somewhere. Anywhere.

I stepped into the hallway, but the walls didn't stretch like they were supposed to. The ceiling felt too low, the fluorescent lights too bright. The muffled noise of classrooms blurred into static.

Vee should've been here. She should've been here. She would have known how to calm me down. How to make me see things. How to stop me from----

My breath hitched.

I dug my nails into my palm, grounding myself, forcing the thoughts away.

I was fine.

I had to be fine.

But my head swayed. My vision blurred at the edges. My ribs clenched too tight around my lungs.

I hadn't eaten since—

When was the last time?

I exhaled shakily, pressing my back against the cold lockers. My legs wobbled, my body screaming for something—food, sleep, anything—but I couldn't move.

I just needed a second.

Just one.

The hallway stretched, the voices melting into nothing.

And then—

Everything tilted.