chapter 26

I still haven't broken up with Dana yet. I'm planning to wait until after our trip from Newfoundland and after I meet Ryujin, He's been extra assy lately, I'm so tired of him ignoring Eva too. Every time I mention that he needs to spend time with Eva, he just keeps saying he knows.

However, today, he's taking her and they're gonna spend the day together while I go visit his mom. She asked to see me and talk about some stuff. I really hope it's not about marriage again, I'm really sure now that I don't want to spend my life with Dana.

Dana and Eva left the house first while I shower before I leave. After I get ready, I drive to Dana's parents house.

I pull in their driveway and see she's already waiting outside.

She says hello with her fake smile and I give her my fake smile too,

"Why did you want me here?"I ask

"I got a job offer for you. It's better pay than your job now so that way Eva won't be embarrassed of you when she grows up" she says.

"Excuse me?"

"Look Yeji, I honestly don't know what my son sees in you but you kinda make our family look bad. Even though I have a gay daughter, she's still better than you" She says to me,

"Did you invite me here just to insult me?" I ask trying to hold back my tears.

"No. I'm not insulting you. I'm sorry you feel that way but I'm just trying to do what's best for you. Don't you want a better paying job?" She ask."There's a way to offer someone a job without making them feel like shit" I say.

"Watch your language, sweetie. A woman cussing is not attractive to a man" she says. I want to slap her.

"Are we done here if I take your leave, offer?" I ask wanting to

"Yes, I'll send you the details" she says hugging me before going back in her house,

I go back to my car and call Ryujin right away I want someone to talk to and I know she will listen.

She answers the call and I hear a lot of loud noises, "What are you doing?"I ask

"In the shower. I heard the ring tone for Skype so I figured it was you calling" she says shower running. while I still hear the

"You could have called me back after your shower" I say

"It must be important since usually you send a text asking if we could talk on the phone so if you're calling right away then it must be important" she explains and now my tears are out. How can someone be this amazing?

"I just left Dana's parents house and I just feel like complete shit I sob a little.

"What happened? Why are you crying? Did they hurt you?" she ask me.

"No. I'm fine. She just said some mean things to me. But I'll let you finish your shower" I say

"You're clearly not fine. I can shower and talk to you. What did she say?" Why is she like this? Why does she care so much about me? Is she just this caring?

"She pretty much just said that Eva will be embarrassed of me one day. Apparently my job is trash so she's making me take another job because my job is tarnishing their image.

"What does she know? She's dumb for saying those things since she clearly doesn't know you. Why would Eva be embarrassed of someone who loves, cares and supports her? My parents didn't have much when I growing up but not once was I embarrassed of them, As long as Eva knows you're there for her, she will be happy, Don't listen to someone like her who has a child like Dana" she says trying to cheer me up.

I accidentally laugh, "How do you do that?"

"Do what?" She ask

"Make me feel better, You're not even here next to me and you still find ways to cheer me up. But now I really want to hug you."

"I can be a good hugger, I'll hug you until you're sick of hugs" she chuckles.

I hear her finish with her shower.

"I can't believe you answered your phone while you're in the shower" I say laughing.

"You called. And there was no text message prior to that so I assume it was important or an emergency. I'd drop anything I'm doing to make sure you're okay. It can be a 5 second phone call or less, I don't care" she says making me smile and my heart feeling fuzzy.

"I can usually tell when you're upset. Over text or phone call. When we Skype, I can tell when you're unhappy with something I said then pretend to be okay. I can tell when you're thinking about something serious. I can tell when you want to share something with me but you're not sure if you should she continues to list of all the things she notices about me."How do you notice all this? I've known Dana for over 2 years and he doesn't even know any of those" I ask.

"I pay attention. I like you and I like paying attention to you" She says like its not a big deal.

She keeps making my heart beat fast. Ryujin just makes me feel better about myself. She makes me want her. She makes me feel brave.

"Right now, with the silent with a bit of humming. You're probably thinking about how I make you feel" she says leaving me speechless and embarrassed.

"Stop that" I say.

"Why? You're cute. I can't wait to see you soon. Oh my friend is coming by the way. She says it's to make sure you're not a serial killer" she says laughing.

"Understandable. I'll bring my sister too in case you're a serial killer too" I joke.

"We can be the IT couple of serial killers" she says.

I laugh, "I love you."

Once I realize what I said, I quickly hang up the phone without saying goodbye. Did I just say I love her? What the hell is wrong with me? She tries calling me again but I ignore it so she would send texts instead which I ignore too. I can't believe that's how I said I love you to her. Ugh. Do I really love her?