Jenny

Jenny: Eric was pretty hesitant, confused, even, so I had to push a bit more. I asked him what he was feeling; then and now. He told me he had wanted to wrestle with me, like kids, but I could see that even he didn't really believe that.

Eric: Jen wouldn't let it drop and kept asking me stuff. Finally I told her that she had seemed hot, really hot when she came into the room. Hotter than any girl I could remember seeing and that somehow just took over somewhere inside of me. Once I got started it was like I couldn't shut up. I told her that she still looked pretty hot, but I had a hard time making eye contact when I told her that.

Jenny: Finally he kind of blurted out that I was hot; both when I came into the room and still, even sitting next to him in a kimono robe. Maybe I should have been shocked, hearing that from my brother, but I wasn't; it seemed cute to me and, to be honest, I felt pretty complimented. I think I was beginning to understand how powerful sex was, what power a woman might hold for - or over - a man. I felt bad for him, feeling that way, doing what he did, and then feeling ashamed about it. I moved a little closer to him on the couch; I think my instinct was to comfort him, to try and remove his embarrassment and that was kind of funny, seeing that I was his younger sister

Eric: Jenny seemed to take what I said really well and I was relieved to get it off my chest, but I was still pretty ashamed. But she was really kind and clearly wasn't offended or, I guess, shocked by what I'd done. In fact, she moved closer to me like she really wanted to talk to me about it. Somehow her manner didn't scare me.

Jenny: I was really touched by what Eric told me and that he was being so honest with me. But I remembered the look that I'd seen in his eyes so I wanted to try and understand more, so I kept asking him how he felt when he saw me; not just that I looked hot, but how did he feel?

Eric: I was embarrassed by what I did; I told her that and I've said it several times here, but she seemed so concerned that I carried on and told her stuff that I'd never told anyone, that I didn't have a girlfriend (she knew that), that with my university faculty there were very few girls, that I wouldn't even know how to approach a girl, that I'd never really - and this was a really embarrassing part - touched a girl.

Jenny: When my brother really opened up to me it almost broke my heart; here was my older brother, going to university, and had no real experience with girls. I knew he didn't have a girlfriend but I thought that was because he was a nerdy engineering guy. He was good looking as far as I was concerned and didn't think he'd have any problem finding a girl friend. He seemed so down about it that I moved closer, right next to him on the couch.

Eric: My blurting stuff out to my sister seemed to have an effect. She didn't say much but moved closer to me and took my hand. My feelings were pretty mixed; I was feeling real affection, ok, love, for her and at the same time I couldn't get the image of her in that green dress out of my mind. Maybe it was the silkiness of her robe that reminded me of that satin dress, but some of those feelings were starting to come back but this time I really tried to push them away.

Jenny: I took Eric's hand, rubbed it gently, and told him that there was no good reason for him not to have a girlfriend or to be worried about approaching girls. I tried to explain that girls weren't really a mystery and have feelings and fears the same as he did. We were quiet for a while and I was thinking about what he'd said, that he'd never really touched a girl. That seemed ridiculous to me and out of nowhere I asked him if he'd like to touch me? Again, I hadn't planned anything like that and I don't know what made me say it, but I thought 'no guy Eric's age should have to say he'd never touched a girl'.

Eric: I couldn't believe it when Jenny told me I could touch her. I was hit with feelings like thunderbolts. On the one hand I felt real concern and affection from her and for her. I felt what she was offering was a loving, sisterly thing to do. On the other hand…jade green dress. And then she simply took my hand and moved it up and down her arm.

Jenny: I took his hand and guided it up and down my arm and told him 'see, girls - I - don't bite' which seemed to take some of the tension away. I thought then that maybe he'd mimic what I did with him, so I slipped my arm around him and kind of leaned in and sure enough his arms seemed to respond of their own accord and there we were, sitting on the couch, in a warm hug.

Eric: Jenny and I were hugging and when she leaned over and placed her head on my chest I bent over and buried my face on her shoulder, in her hair. I breathed in deeply, the first time I'd ever smelled a girl's shampoo; Jen's was lemony. Without even thinking about it I pressed my head down further and could feel the warmth of her shoulder under the robe. My lips kind of traced the curve of her shoulder and I felt her hands moving, kind of caressing my sides, my back.

Jenny: When I felt Eric's head on my shoulder, his lips tracing it, I knew I was on to something, knew that I was heading in the right direction. I could feel his warm breath on my neck and it was, honestly, quite wonderful. I began moving my hands, gliding along his sides, realizing again that he was in very good shape. I could feel the muscles of his flanks and was suddenly seized with a compulsion to feel his abs.