Chapter 11: The Ashes We Bury

Lucian fell asleep with his head resting against Rowan's shoulder, their fingers still interlaced from the rooftop moment they had shared. The quiet night wrapped around them like a blanket, cool and gentle. Rowan could feel Lucian's body slowly relaxing, his breaths deepening, tension ebbing away—but only on the surface.

Rowan didn't sleep. He kept his arm around Lucian, holding him there.

Lucian dreamed of fire.

Not the metaphorical kind—the real kind.

Hot, greedy, living fire that tore through drywall and memories. He was seven, small and trembling beneath the kitchen table.

Thunder shook the windows, and his mother's voice was calling for him from the stove.

"Lucian? Baby, it's just the storm—"

He didn't want her to come closer. The buzz in his skull was back. That static. The one that made things shake. The one that meant something terrible was about to happen.

He didn't want to scream. But he did.

The surge of power that erupted from his chest was like a sonic explosion—plates shattered, cabinets tore free from their hinges, glass flew in every direction. His mother's body hit the ground with a dull, wet thud, eyes wide in surprise. She didn't get up.

His father ran in then, barefoot on broken glass, skidding to the floor to pull him from under the table.

Lucian begged him not to touch him. "Daddy, don't! Please!"

But his father did what any father would do—he reached out. And Lucian's body convulsed as the second wave hit.

The entire kitchen exploded. Fire tore through the ceiling, through the upstairs rooms. Paint peeled from the walls. Alarms screamed. The house buckled.

Lucian crawled out hours later, his skin glowing faintly with residual power. His hair was singed. His hands were red and raw.

His parents were gone.

The corpses they pulled from the rubble were unrecognizable.

They didn't let him see them.

They didn't even let him grieve.

He remembered the white vans. The sterile suits. The gas masks.

They sedated him twice. Once to calm him, and once more when he woke screaming for his mother.

He remembered a cold cot in a facility underground. No windows. No names. Just codes and numbers and the constant hum of fluorescent lights.

His number was L-7.

No one called him Lucian anymore.

The first week, they starved him. Said it was to test how long he could go without food before his energy levels dropped.

He passed out on the fourth day.

When he woke up, they strapped him to a chair. Needles pierced his skin in twelve places.

"Electromagnetic resonance testing," one of them said, jotting notes.

He asked to go home.

They laughed.

They didn't train them. They conditioned them.

Lucian was thrown into a white room with another boy—no older than him. They turned off the inhibitors. Watched what would happen.

They fought like animals. Not because they wanted to, but because it was survival.

When Lucian's opponent fell—bleeding from the mouth, eyes dull—Lucian begged the researchers to help him.

They dragged the body out and left Lucian alone in the blood.

The next day, they repeated the test.

New child. Same outcome.

Lucian stopped asking questions after that.

They called it the Evaluation Wing.

It was more like a prison.

The children were divided by code. Each one trained—or tortured—differently depending on their Esper potential. Lucian's powers were classified as volatile and primal. Unstable.

So they treated him like a bomb.

Noise conditioning. Sleep deprivation. Exposure to rift echoes.

They'd lower the temperature in his cell to freezing, then bombard him with images of his parents' autopsy reports.

His heart rate would spike. His powers would flare.

Then they'd punish him for losing control.

Sometimes, they used sound—discordant pulses designed to destabilize him. High-frequency noises layered with subliminal triggers.

Lucian once clawed at his own ears until they bled, just to make the sound stop.

They wrote it down. Called it a "response index."

There was a doctor he remembered—Dr. Vasik. Cold, gaunt, always smiling. He liked to make Lucian think he cared.

"Do you want to see your mother again, Lucian?"

Lucian had nodded.

Dr. Vasik showed him a holo-projection of a woman screaming while Lucian's power flared in slow-motion.

"That's what she saw. Right before the fire consumed her."

Lucian had clawed at the walls for hours after that.

Another success. Another data point.

Lucian twisted in Rowan's arms.

Rowan's heart clenched as he wiped sweat from Lucian's temple. "You're safe. You're here. Breathe."

But Lucian was locked deep in the past.

He was eleven when they let him walk a hallway again.

His muscles had atrophied from disuse. He limped.

The researchers had begun calling him a "success." His survival rates were the highest. His rift synchronization had crossed a new threshold.

They implanted a monitoring chip near his spine.

"No more dreams," they said. "Just missions."

Lucian was a weapon now.

He didn't cry when they gave him the uniform.

He didn't even feel anything.

He was sent into test chambers with synthetic rift simulations. Each time, they raised the output.

One time, he passed out from overexposure. His body convulsed for hours afterward.

They called it a minor regression.

The explosion that destroyed the facility came without warning.

Lucian thought it was another simulation at first.

Then a team in black stormed the building. Gunfire. Shouts. Screams.

He sat in his cell and waited for death.

Instead, Evelyn Zarek kicked down his door.

He remembered her eyes. Fierce. Calculating. Human.

"Lucian?" she asked.

He didn't speak.

She offered her hand.

He stared at it like it was fire.

But he took it.

And she never let go.

Lucian woke with a gasp, hands shaking.

Rowan didn't move. Didn't speak. Just tightened his hold.

"I saw it," Lucian whispered. "All of it."

"I know."

"They turned me into something. I killed those kids."

"They made you do it. That's not the same."

Lucian's eyes burned. "But I did it."

"You survived."

Rowan leaned his forehead to Lucian's.

"You're here now. And I'm not letting go."

Lucian broke then—silent tears spilling down his cheeks, his hand still wrapped in Rowan's.

And for the first time in years, he didn't feel like a monster.

He just felt like a boy finally waking up from a nightmare.

They stayed like that for a long time. The rooftop silent. The world distant.

Lucian's breathing had steadied, but his eyes remained glassy. "I used to think I was the only one who came from nothing."

Rowan let out a quiet, humorless laugh. "You're not."

Lucian turned his head slightly, searching his expression. "What happened to you?"

Rowan hesitated, his grip never faltering. "I don't talk about it often."

"Then talk to me."

Rowan stared out over the city for a moment, his voice soft when it came. "I was left at a shelter when I was a baby. No name, no blanket, nothing. The volunteers said I didn't cry. Just stared at the ceiling like I was waiting for something."

Lucian didn't interrupt.

"I bounced around for years. Group homes. Cold, institutional beds. Screaming in the halls. I was angry all the time. I didn't know why."

He swallowed. "Then I met them—Jonas and Elira. My foster parents. They were the first people who looked at me and didn't see a file. They saw a child. They adopted me when I was nine. I thought... I thought maybe things would be okay."

His voice cracked.

"They were good people. Simple. Jonas worked in tech repairs. Elira was a baker. They used to make fresh bread every morning. The house always smelled like cinnamon and coffee. It was small, but it was home."

Lucian gently pressed his forehead to Rowan's. "What happened?"

Rowan's shoulders shook slightly. "Three years later, a Rift opened two blocks away. The alarms failed. It was a minor event, they said. But the creatures poured through."

He closed his eyes. "Jonas and Elira hid me in a crawlspace and told me not to come out until it was over. I didn't listen. I heard them scream. I ran out—saw Jonas torn apart. Elira was shielding me with her body. She burned alive. I was screaming, using my Guide power, even though I didn't know what it was."

Lucian gripped his hand tightly.

"Zarek agents arrived just in time to pull me out. But there was nothing left. Just ashes. I remember looking at the medics and asking why they saved me instead of them. They didn't have an answer."

Rowan finally met Lucian's eyes. "So no, you're not the only one who lost everything. You're not the only one who carries ghosts."

Lucian exhaled shakily. "We're both remnants."

"We are," Rowan said. "But maybe we can be something more than that. Together."

They sat there, two survivors molded by grief and flame, bruised by different pasts but bonded in understanding. And for the first time, the silence between them felt whole.