Eleanor sat in her father's drawing room, her hands folded neatly in her lap, her gaze focused on the opulent rug beneath her feet. The evening had settled heavily over the house, bringing with it a sense of suffocation she could not shake. Across from her, Nathaniel reclined in his chair with the same effortless composure he had always carried, sipping a glass of port as though they had not just exchanged strained pleasantries. The faint crackling of the fireplace filled the silence between them, punctuated only by the occasional clink of crystal against his ring.
She felt the weight of his silence, the unsaid words pressing in on her. She had been distant since the morning in the park, since the moment Sebastian had spoken the truth she dared not admit to herself. And Nathaniel had noticed.
"You've been quiet," he finally said, his voice smooth yet edged with something sharp.
Eleanor forced a polite smile, trained through years of society's expectations. "I have merely been preoccupied."
Nathaniel studied her, his pale blue eyes searching hers with an unsettling intensity. "Preoccupied with what, exactly?"
She hesitated, then exhaled, her fingers smoothing over the delicate embroidery on her gown. "With the future."
Nathaniel set his glass down on the table beside him, the sound precise and deliberate, as though marking the importance of this moment. "Our future?"
Eleanor met his gaze, her throat tightening. "Perhaps."
For a moment, he simply watched her, calculating, as if weighing her every word before deciding his next move. Then he leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees, his expression unreadable yet brimming with restrained authority. "I've been patient, Eleanor. I have given you space, allowed you time to accept the reality of our arrangement. But I sense that something has changed."
She opened her mouth, but he lifted a hand, silencing her.
"I know you," he continued, his voice low but firm. "I know the way your mind works. And I know when there is something—or someone—turning your thoughts away from what is expected."
Her breath caught. "Nathaniel—"
"Is it Cavendish?"
The question struck like a lash. She straightened, trying to will away the flush creeping up her neck. "That is hardly relevant."
Nathaniel let out a quiet, humorless laugh, his head tilting slightly. "On the contrary, it is entirely relevant. I see the way he looks at you, the way you react to him." His voice dropped, turning colder, more controlled. "Tell me, Eleanor, has he filled your head with foolish notions? Ideas of rebellion, of freedom?"
She swallowed hard. "Is it foolish to wonder if there is more than a life dictated by duty?"
Nathaniel's jaw tensed, and for the first time, his carefully cultivated patience cracked. "It is naïve," he snapped. "The world does not reward sentimentality. You know this."
Eleanor clenched her fists in her lap, her nails digging into the soft fabric of her gown. "Perhaps I wish to believe otherwise."
Nathaniel stared at her for a long moment, something dangerous flickering in his expression. Then, he stood abruptly, smoothing the front of his waistcoat as though resetting himself. "We are to be married, Eleanor. That is not a question. I will not allow Cavendish—or anyone else—to interfere with what has already been decided."
She rose to her feet as well, a surge of defiance she could not suppress coursing through her veins. "Allow?" she repeated, voice quieter but no less powerful. "You speak as though my choices do not matter."
Nathaniel stepped closer, his presence looming, his cologne—a sharp, deliberate scent—wrapping around her like a vice. "Your duty matters," he said. "And I will remind you of it, should you need me to."
A chill settled over her skin, creeping down her spine. The unspoken warning in his words was not lost on her.
She forced herself to meet his gaze, even as something inside her trembled. "Good evening, Nathaniel."
A muscle in his jaw twitched, but he said nothing more. Instead, he inclined his head in a mockery of civility, then turned on his heel and left the room. The door clicked shut behind him, the finality of it echoing in her chest like the closing of a cage.
Eleanor let out a shaky breath, pressing a hand to her racing heart.
She had always known the life planned for her was inevitable. But tonight, for the first time, she realized just how much of herself she might have to sacrifice to keep it. And the thought terrified her more than she dared admit.