KAT
I tighten the towel around my body and sniff back the tears that are threatening to fall from my eyes. I just had the best morning of my life. I have never felt so free as I did when Scarlett was in control.
All my life, I have felt like I haven't fit in or something was missing, but now that I have Scarlett, I feel complete. I can't believe that I fought this way of life for as long as I did. For the first time in a long time, I feel truly happy.
But now, with the prospect of Luke leaving me alone, the darkness is starting to invade my mind once again. I worry that with Luke gone, I will slip back into the depression of my previous life. I don't want the panic attacks to come back. I don't want to feel sad anymore.