Heaven Takes

Heaven blinds, blindness zither of unconsciousness. I wish I were sky so I could possess you. Earth pierces, wound quiver of desire.

I wish to be earth, to hold you. City, I desire you. As body desires body.

As atheist desires athenaeum. City, I feel contempt. Past, present, future. Values, virtues, truths. City you robbed.

I was a virgin, you raped. City, I was only son, now in the belly I carry your children. Despair, loneliness, fear.

City, you are toxin. Gluttony feeds venom. Oppress, you are profitable evil. Flesh calls flesh, blood calls blood; hate calls hate.

Murderous thirst, adorn us.

We shall be mercenaries, fall for pounds, euros, dollars. City, I will be parasite, host me.

We will die together as strangers: orphans, white as milk, red as blood; make us aseptic, cogs, insects, make us insignificant, apostrophes, teach us to worship luxury, apostles.

This is not lust but porn, I feel no disgust nor desire introitus. Take me acolyte, he who exploited us before has been of admonition to us.

Deception as the sole means.

Money as the ultimate end.

Drugs as playful synthetic. City, make me apathetic, become conscious, give us a penthouse, an atelier, whores, sommeliers, let dignity, be lost in wine and vanity. City, I hate you; yet I love you. You made me anonymous, a step on asphalt.

You made me concrete, a flower of evil.

These buildings, these cars, these streets.

These briefcases, these heels, these ties. These lights, these stores, these offices. These windows, these statues, these graffiti.

These faces, these squeezes, these smiles.

These exchanges, this money. This noose.

I can't breathe.