I let myself cry until the weight on my chest eased a bit. Crying will make me feel better but I reminded myself it's going to be the last time I'll ever cry again. Bad things happened to me all at the same time and I needed to release the stress I'd been keeping within me for weeks. I cried because Mom's gone, Celine's gone, my house is gone and now Grey would be gone in my life too.
Why would you hold on to a man who doesn't love you? A voice inside my head told me. If he wants divorce then give him what he wants and move on with your life. The voice added sternly. Deep within me I knew I should do exactly that. Let go.
I'll never be happy unless I let go of the things that make me sad. Grey is on the top of the list which makes me unhappy. The only way to redeem myself is to sign the divorce papers and move on with life.