Chapter 11 - The messenger bleeds

I got up from my bed. I looked to myself in the mirror. "What is going on... My emotional state... Am... Am i crazy? Am i histerical...? Ha... Ha... Haha... Hahahaha... HAHAHAHAHA" I say, starting to break in a histerical laughter. But i get interrupted by the sun light coming from the blinds.

"Fucks sake." I rip the blinds out of the window and throw them to the corner of the room. I sit on the chair for the desk and i start drawing. Drawing Matildas body... Every detail... Nothing missing... I keep drawing... I dont stop until everything is exactly how i saw it...

As i finish i get up and head to the living room. I sit on the couch and stare at the wall. Wondering how im going to end up in the end, after everything. We will all die some time. Be it now, be it 20 years from now. Be it 100 years from now. Every living organism has its time limit.

I get up, head to my room and dress up in the clothes i had, grabbing my rifle, ammo and vest. "Amy, im heading out. I dont know if im going to be back today. So eat anything there is to eat." I say to her.

"O-Ok" She replies. I walk out of the room and get inside the humvee. I drive off and head to an unknown road. I keep going until i reach some farm fields. Parking right outside a farm house.

I get out of my humvee, grab my rifle and i see some people in the farm house. I head to the door and knock. An old guy opens the door.

"Who are you? What are you doing here?" he asks.

I raise my rifle and shoot him in the face. I walk inside the house and start killing anybody i saw. After a while i killed the whole family.

"Why did i do this... Why did i do this... Why... Why... I am insane... Im fucking crazy... Im insane... I dont want to die... I dont want to die... I DONT WANT TO DIE" I scream with all my power.

I walk to the old mans body and i stare at it, tears coming out of my eyes.

"I-Im sorry..." I felt sorry, i felt guilt. But, i dont know... I just did it on impulse. I thought that they were monsters. They were creatures in my eyes but when i killed all of them they turned human...

"Fuck... Fuck... Why..." Tears keep flooding out of my eyes. I walk around the house and find the basement. I walk down and as i reach the basement my eyes dilate.

"W-What the fuck" i say, staring at the pile of bones and the rotting corpses of several people. Noticing carcasses of babies... I try to hold my disgust but vomit fills the room. I rush out of there and close the door behind me...

"D-Did god do that? Did god know that they deserved it?" I ask...

I walk outside for some fresh air but i hear a sound in the barn. I walk over to it and i open the two main doors. As i enter i find somebody. He looked like a human but i got a feeling he wasnt one. I looked at him up and down and noticed a light halo over his head floating.

"Who are you?" I ask...

"An angel, sent by god" it replies.

"W-Wait, you are an actual angel?" I ask.

"I am the messenger of gods will... But i saw the punishments he gave you. I felt bad and came down to help you humans but i realised why he did this." He replies.

"W-What do you mean?" I ask.

"God saw everything you have done. All your greed. All your lust. All your gluttony. All your pride. All your rage. All your blasphemy. Everything. So he decided to punish you by sending the creatures down to earth. I came down here to help you but i got used. The goverment found me and used me as a weapon. After i got rendered useless they threw me in the forest until the family here saved me" It replies.

I am completely confused. God did all this? But why? Most of us didnt do anything. So why should we be paying the price.

"Son, i can see it in your eyes. You have the eye of the twisted world. God has given you that so you could save the world. Use it wisely." It adds.

"B-but wait. Why me?" I ask.

"Son, you are one of many humans but you arent one of many people that have such a strong feeling of regret and guilt. God has hand picked you and gave you the chance to be the savior. I dont know if there are any others like you but i think you are the one that is able to save the world. But i have came to hate this world. Being tested on has made me see how you humans work. Thinking of yourselves over anybody else. You use other humans as tools for your benefit and you ignore us. All of our hints we have given. When we sent Jesus you crucified him. When we give saints abilities you doubt the truth of it. You should face real-"

Before he could finish his words a spear of longinus pierces his neck, stopping him from telling the truth. The silence is deafening, as i stare at the blade of longinus is the angels throat.

After a moment a hear a whisper in my ear.

"Nobody will believe you" the whisper told me.

I looked at the angels lifeless face and kept staring.