"So that's what happened back then. So, I never actually loved him."
Looking at the image of the young Bibi Dong in her memory, she seemed to be bowing her head and accepting Qian Xunji's lesson on the surface,
but in reality, she was clenching her silver teeth, and a strong sense of resentment and rebellion arose in her heart.
Supreme Pontiff Bibi Dong's expression suddenly became clear, and there was a hint of understanding in her eyes.
At the age of forty, her temperament, experience, knowledge, and perspective were completely different from when she first emerged at the age of eighteen.
Naturally, she could clearly discern the true situation at that time, even the most fundamental and subtle changes in her mentality.
At that time, she actually harbored resentment towards Qian Xunji in her heart, and it was very strong, but neither of them realized it yet.
It's like a student who is strictly required in all aspects and continuously studies with high intensity, facing the teacher's arrangement of a large amount of homework again.
The teacher would think, 'I'm doing this for your own good,' but what the student hates most is precisely this sentence, 'I'm doing this for your own good.'
Because such behavior will make the disciplined person feel that they have lost their self and freedom, and they cannot even make their own decisions about small things.
Moreover, the person who says this sentence often doesn't feel the pain of standing and talking.
Even if this is indeed the truth, even if she chooses herself, she will eventually make the same choice.
But when ordered to do so by others,
the pursuit and desire for freedom and self in the depths of the heart will instead Encourage the target to make completely opposite behaviors.
When the number of times being ordered increases, the inner rebellion and the accumulated resistance will become more and more serious and intense.
As Bibi Dong is a disciple of the Supreme Pontiff and a Holy Maiden,
there are more than just ordinary times when similar things, being ordered or other things, cause her to have to do something.
Her words and deeds, clothing, food, housing, and transportation all have standards. Everyone will say how you should be as a Holy Maiden, and Qian Xunji says it especially often.
It seems that she is not living for herself at all, but only for Spirit Hall and for the identity of the Holy Maiden.
If it were an ordinary person, they might resist or endure it, and it would pass.
But unfortunately, this woman is not ordinary. Her will is more firm than anyone else, and her heart is more proud than anyone else.
Her resistance will also be more violent than anyone else.
Yu Xiaogang's matter seems simple, but Qian Xunji made at least three serious mistakes.
First, love is an extremely personal and private matter, which is different from all other aspects, and it is most taboo to be interfered with.
Only machines will act completely according to right and wrong and logic,
but people are different. People are impulsive. When they are impulsive, logic and right and wrong are no longer important.
And emotional problems are where people are most prone to impulsiveness.
Second, the disciple was clearly not in love, but was wrongly accused of being in love without explanation.
There is also a third, and the most important point,
standing in the position of the person concerned, she is actually looking for a solution to the cultivation of Twin Spirits. If this problem is not handled properly, she may lose her life.
Faced with this situation, the young Bibi Dong finally completely exploded and fell into madness.
Six words: If you don't let me, I have to.
Looking at herself in the picture, she really resolutely went to find that good-for-nothing,
Supreme Pontiff Bibi Dong gritted her teeth and said hatefully:
"Sure enough, it's still Qian Xunji's fault, that scum."
...
The young Bibi Dong fell in love with Yu Xiaogang,
however, the actual situation was completely different from the image that Supreme Pontiff Bibi Dong later imagined in order to fight against the Rakshasa Divine Force, which was beautified, virtualized, and even turned into an illusion.
In reality, there was not much communication between the two.
Although the young Bibi Dong was furious and determined to resist, she was not completely overwhelmed and foolish enough to joke about her future.
She only told Yu Xiaogang that she had Twin Spirits,
and used the Holy Maiden token to open higher-level permissions for him in the library.
The so-called girlfriend, love, etc., is just a guise, a bait to guide the other party to study Spirit theory and how to cultivate the second spirit.
Yu Xiaogang, in addition to getting a title, didn't get anything else.
Not to mention holding hands or anything like that, most of the time they couldn't even see each other.
The few communications might be to report the research progress on Spirit theory every one or two months.
And even these meetings every two months were often unpleasant.
"Is this what you spent several months and painstakingly researched? Are you sure you're not kidding me?"
The young Bibi Dong looked at the information in her hand with a shocked face,
what is the highest 423 years for the first Spirit Ring, Spirit can be divided into Beast Spirit and Tool Spirit, there is no useless Spirit only useless Spirit Master and so on.
The whole person suddenly couldn't hold back.
What she wanted to solve was the Goldbach conjecture, and she gave the other party a bunch of higher mathematics data, but the final result was that one plus one is very likely equal to two.
"Didn't I already open the highest level database for you? It contains the accumulation and achievements of the entire Spirit Hall over the years."
Bibi Dong roared, and powerful Spirit Power fluctuations spread out in circles like waves.
Impacting Yu Xiaogang's pale face, his eyes were full of fear,
and this so-called theoretical master actually said with a grievance:
"Those are too profound, and many of them are contradictory and conflicting,
I... I can't understand it very well, so I thought about starting with the basic parts first."
...
"Pfft!"
Qin Feng immediately burst out laughing. He really couldn't help it, couldn't help it.
"Isn't it? He can't even understand the things that others have already researched and the conclusions they have drawn?
I said, how could he not even know some of the most basic common sense since he came out of Spirit Hall?"
Supreme Pontiff Bibi Dong also sighed and said:
"Actually, I should have understood it long ago. If it was really true love, the Rakshasa Divine Force would have been completely integrated, and it wouldn't have been so difficult. After more than ten years, the progress is less than half.
All that exists in my heart is only hatred for Qian Xunji."
At this moment, she completely understood.
Now that the Rakshasa Divine Force has a new and more perfect solution,
then the fantasy that was condensed to integrate the Rakshasa Divine Force and prevent the complete fall of the soul instantly separated and divided from the real past and real memory,
the filter, was completely broken.
"Actually, the best way to forget a relationship is to start a new one."
At this time, Qin Feng suddenly interjected meaningfully.
Beside her, Bibi Dong heard this, and a very cunning and witty expression flashed on her face, with an expression and look that said I had expected it long ago:
"Hmph, the fox's tail is finally showing? But unfortunately, you will never succeed."
Qin Feng pretended to be shocked, his tone and expression suddenly became extremely exaggerated, and he applauded with both hands:
"Wow, you are so smart, I obviously hid it very well, how did you find out? It's so strange, so surprising, so unexpected."
Bibi Dong glanced at him coldly, but turned her head and replied slightly smugly:
"You are a lecher, and this Supreme Pontiff's beauty is unparalleled in the world."