I used to think sleep didn't require bravery. But for those who lived in fear—sleeping peacefully is a privilege. For years, I slept in alert mode. A sound woke me. A dream crushed me. I stopped trusting people—including myself. I listened for footsteps. Held my breath at the sound of turning locks.
But months after Geneva, something changed. I no longer slept curled tight. No more knife under the pillow. No more ceiling light to remind myself I still existed. I still dreamed—but not of terror.
In my dreams, Aunt Mai sat by a fire, hunched slightly, holding a cup of tea. She said nothing. Just looked at me and nodded. One evening, I finished the final piece for my book's reprint. It wasn't long—just one paragraph: "Thank you to those who were silent. Thank you to those who endured without witness. And thank you to the one who vanished so I could remain."
I turned off the light. Didn't check my phone. Didn't double-check locks. Didn't open the window. The air in the room didn't move. Even silence had softened. I just placed my hand over my chest, felt my heartbeat slowing—not out of fear, but out of peace.
And for the first time in many years, I slept. No nightmares. No jolts. Just a quiet sleep. As if every door inside me had gently closed.
Author's Note
This book was never meant to be a story. It began as scattered memories—written to survive my own silence. But over time, I realized that healing does not happen alone. It happens when stories are shared, when names are remembered, and when voices rise again.
To those still in darkness: I see you. I once was you. To those who vanished for others to live: you are not forgotten. And to Aunt Mai—wherever your name has disappeared into—this book carries it home. And keeps it warm.
But just as the doors inside me gently closed, another quietly creaked open—
Somewhere far away, a woman with a scar on her wrist picked up a copy of my book.
She read in silence.
And then, she whispered her own name—for the first time in years.
Perhaps… I'm not the only one who survived.
And perhaps… it's time their voices rise too.
This story may have found its pause—
But another is just beginning.
— Linh