the reason of Fate, Kismet

Shinji would look at Chaos, his eyes full of rage "you have taken everything from me!!" He shouted angrily, But a man with a mask would appear between the two "I think...it's time" he said looking at Chaos and Chaos sighed "aww but I was having so much fun..." he said with a adorable voice but Kismet said nothing snapping his fingers the whole space around them was now just a white room, the masked man stood across from Shinji a clock between them the ticking echoed across the white space "I think you've traumatized this one enough Chaos, you should go back to talk with Doctor Balor..." he said coldly as Chaos sighed "fine.." he walked away into a portal and it disappeared, the man would look at Shinji "I'm sorry you had to go through such pain and suffering little one..." he said calmly looking at Shinji and he was in awe "w..where am I? What's going on?!" He said confused, The man would bow "you may call me...Kismet the Angel of Fate" he explained "where you are and why is something I cannot tell you...yet" he would sigh "Doctor Balor should be coming to explain much with you..you're in Angel Corps mental facility" he said as Shinji's eyes widen "s..so was what I was experiencing...fake.." he looked at Kismet tears in his eyes, Kismet looked away "Doctor Balor will be coming in and explaining that with you..." he would open a portal and walk into it vanishing from the room the portal gone now Shinji was all alone what seemed like hours, the only thing he could hear was the ticking of the clock it felt like it was getting louder and louder, before a portal opened, a man with long black hair would walk in it was the same man as before. "I..it's you!" He would look at Balor with confusion "you were the one at the park!" Balor would chuckle "I see so you remember that I'm sorry you do" he would sigh and Shinji's eyes widen while someone followed Balor "Destiny?...." he asked bewildered "b..but you died..you didn't exist you were just a dream.." he backed away and Balor waved his hand softly "do not fear Destiny was real....but I need to ask a few questions..do you remember anything before you woke up that day..the day you were going to Shoto with Destiny and Rose?" Balor asked and Shinji thought about it "...no.." Balor wrote on a clipboard "I see how about meeting Destiny do you ever remember meeting her before that day?.." Tears ran down Shinji's cheeks thinking about it "...no...why don't I remember?" He asked still full of confusion but Balor only sighed and looked down at Shinji "do you see now...do you remember the day you died?..." he asked and Shinji thought back to that day but then another memory kicked in flames filled his vision "....brother...why didn't you save me..." he held his head before he remembered, He was a child on earth he would look around tied to stake with another person next to him on fire "M..mommy?...Daddy?...." he cried out in tears "I...I don't want to die.." he struggled against the stake before the human would throw a match into the stack of wood below Shinji, he screamed in pain as the whole stake caught on fire "BROTHER....PLEASE SAVE ME!!" He managed to scream out in pain, flames devouring Shinji's small body. The magic from shinji made the flames go white he looked seeing the group of people looking at Shinji in disgust some holding signs saying "Death to Angels" as he looked out to them he saw his mother walking towards him holding out her arms towards his flaming body tears running down her cheeks "my poor baby..." she would hug him the pain of the flames turned into a warm comfort, then everything went black and Shinji would fall back after the flashback "no..Balor...what am I?..." he asked traumatized and Balor put the clipboard away "I am not the one to tell you that..." he would turn away "Kismet come!!" He shouted, a portal opened and Kismet walked back out he would look down at Shinji and slowly take off his mask revealing himself to be drake, Shinjis eyes widen "b..brother?..." Kismet sighed "you're nor my brother...you creature..you only stole my brother's face and body...whatever you are..you're not him" his face was filled with anger "you're not the one to blame you are a victim to Destiny...she's the one to blame for this..." he would look disgusted and then look at Shinji "I'm sorry but I can not call you my brother....you were created by Destiny to live in this dream world she created..we tried to destroy it before it could do more harm to the real world..but her selfishness doomed it once she gave you her godly powers..." Kismet explained and Balor would sigh "this is the last wall that protects the real world from this dream world...if you break it you will destroy the real jenovah as we know it.." Balor said coldly "you have a choice to leave and stay in this dream world as a God of Blight or leave this dream and destroy my creation and die by my hands..." he said looking away "I promise you you're much safer here...Blights are disgusting creatures that destroy everything they touch..I know this is a huge decision but you have to make it here and now..." Balor would look at the Blight with annoyance "after you died I was sent by the angels to destroy earth so your earth is gone everything you know and loved is all gone..." Rose walked in "I'm sorry Shinji but everything they're saying is true..." he said sadly and Shinji would look at them with no emotion "I..am not a Blight....i am not a emotionless monster I have emotion...I have memories and feelings...and you want me to make a choice I have no knowing of..." black flames surrounded Shinjis body and he held his head "DO YOU THINK I CAN MAKE SUCH A CHOICE NOW?!!" He shouted angrily "AFTER ALL YOUVE PUT ME THROUGH?!" He said looking at Rose and Chaos, Balor interjected "we had to use trauma to wake you up..from this dream" he said calmly "it is painful but you have too we don't have time the black sun is falling and if you don't make a choice now....I'll strike you down where you stand...and end this madness..." Balor said coldly, the ticking of the clock grew louder and louder so much noise, so less time.