Guilt

A strange, unsettling calm settled over Gordon, a lingering echo of the dark pleasure he had just experienced. The taste of the High Priestess's soul, a bizarre, almost intoxicating sensation, lingered on his tongue, a perverse delicacy unlike anything he had ever encountered. He felt a strange, almost euphoric lightness, a sense of power he had never known.

Then, a deafening thunderclap shattered the silence, the sound so intense that the bookshelves rattled, and the very air seemed to vibrate. A torrential downpour began, the rain lashing against the windows, a furious onslaught of nature.

The sudden, violent intrusion of the storm snapped Gordon out of his daze. His eyes widened in horror, his mind reeling as the memory of his actions flooded back. He had eaten her soul. He had consumed the essence of another being.

A wave of nausea washed over him, a sickening realization of the enormity of his transgression. Souls were sacred, the very essence of life, the intangible spark that defined a person. They were not meant to be consumed, to be devoured like some grotesque feast.

He looked down at his hands, his fingers trembling, his skin crawling. What had he become? A monster? A predator? He felt a profound sense of disgust, a chilling fear of the darkness that had taken root within him.

In his study, Mr. Suhat felt a growing unease. The unsettling silence of the house had been punctuated by a series of chilling screams emanating from the library. He had hesitated, his heart pounding in his chest, unsure of what he would find.

Then, the thunderclap, a deafening roar that shook the very foundations of his home, finally spurred him into action. He couldn't ignore the sounds any longer. Gordon might be in danger, might need his assistance.

He rose from his desk, his movements slow and deliberate, his gaze fixed on the closed door of his study. He took a deep breath, trying to calm his nerves, and then he opened the door and stepped into the hallway.

The house was eerily silent, the only sound the relentless drumming of the rain against the windows. He walked towards the library, his footsteps echoing through the empty halls. As he approached the library doors, he noticed a faint, lingering scent, something metallic and unsettling.

He hesitated, his hand hovering over the doorknob. He wasn't sure what he would find on the other side. But he knew he couldn't turn back. He had to face whatever waited for him in the library. He took another deep breath, and then he opened the door.

Mr. Suhat stepped into the library, his eyes scanning the room. The dim light, filtered through the rain-streaked windows, cast long, distorted shadows across the bookshelves.

He found Gordon kneeling on the floor, his body shaking, his face buried in his hands. He was crying, his sobs echoing through the otherwise silent room.

Mr. Suhat's gaze swept across the library, searching for any sign of what had transpired. He noticed a faint, metallic scent lingering in the air, a disturbing undercurrent to the musty smell of old books. He saw no sign of damage, no broken furniture, no sign of a struggle.

Yet, he was certain he had heard screams, both Gordon's and a woman's, moments before the thunderclap. He wondered what had happened, what dark secret the library held.

"Gordon?" he asked, his voice soft, concerned. "What's wrong? What happened here?"

Gordon remained unresponsive to Mr. Suhat's gentle call. He knelt on the floor, his body trembling, his sobs muffled by his hands. He mumbled incoherently, his voice a broken whisper, "I don't… I don't…"

Mr. Suhat, his curiosity and concern deepening, approached Gordon cautiously. He placed a gentle hand on Gordon's shoulder, a silent gesture of comfort.

The touch startled Gordon. He flinched, his body jerking involuntarily, and he looked up, his eyes wide and filled with a mixture of fear and confusion. He stared at Mr. Suhat, his gaze unfocused, his mind still reeling from the events that had transpired.

Mr. Suhat, observing Gordon's disoriented state, understood that something deeply unsettling had occurred in the library. He spoke softly, his voice gentle and reassuring, trying to coax Gordon out of his shock.

"Gordon, it's alright," he said, his voice calm and soothing. "Let's go to my study. You can tell me what happened there."

With careful, patient words and gentle persuasion, he helped Gordon to his feet. Gordon's body was stiff, his movements slow and hesitant, but he allowed Mr. Suhat to guide him from the library, through the dimly lit hallway, and into the warm, inviting glow of the study.

Mr. Suhat settled Gordon into a comfortable armchair by the fireplace. He then prepared a steaming mug of hot chocolate, its rich, comforting aroma filling the room. He placed the mug in Gordon's trembling hands, along with a plate of freshly baked cookies, their warm, sweet scent a gentle counterpoint to the lingering tension in the air.

Gordon sat, his gaze unfocused, his mind still adrift in the aftermath of his terrifying experience. He held the mug of hot chocolate, its warmth seeping into his cold hands, but he made no move to drink. He remained dazed, lost in the swirling vortex of his memories.

Mr. Suhat observed Gordon's continued distress, his gaze filled with concern. The young man sat motionless, his eyes vacant, his body rigid with anxiety. He knew he had to do something to break through Gordon's shock.

"Gordon," he said gently, his voice soft and reassuring, "please, try to drink some of this hot chocolate. It will help you feel better." He gestured towards the mug in Gordon's trembling hands. "The warmth will soothe you, and the sweetness will calm your nerves. Just a few sips."

Hesitantly, Gordon raised the mug to his lips. He took a small sip, the warm, rich liquid flowing down his throat, spreading a comforting warmth through his body. The sweet, unfamiliar taste surprised him, a pleasant sensation that chased away some of the lingering chill.

He didn't know the name of this drink, this "chocolate," but he had to admit, Mr. Suhat's words were true. He did feel a little better. The warmth settled in his stomach, a soothing balm against the gnawing anxiety that had gripped him. He took another sip, and another, savoring the sweetness, the warmth, the fleeting sense of comfort.

Unconsciously, Gordon drained the last drop of the hot chocolate. The sweet, warm liquid had been a soothing balm, a temporary reprieve from the turmoil within him. He found himself wanting more, craving the comforting sensation.

Mr. Suhat, observing Gordon's empty mug and the subtle shift in his demeanor, smiled gently. "Would you like some more?" he asked, his voice warm and inviting.

Gordon nodded, his gaze fixed on the empty mug.

"Of course," Mr. Suhat said, rising from his chair. He walked to his desk, where a small kettle sat warming over a low flame. He picked up the kettle and carefully poured the steaming liquid into Gordon's mug, refilling it to the brim. "There's plenty more where that came from," he said, placing the kettle back on the desk.

Gordon eagerly drank the refilled mug of hot chocolate, the warmth spreading through his body, chasing away the lingering chills. He felt a little steadier now, the initial shock beginning to subside. Along with the returning clarity came a gnawing hunger, a stark reminder of the neglect his body had endured.

His eyes drifted to the plate of cookies sitting on the table before him. He stared at them, his mouth watering slightly.

Mr. Suhat, noticing Gordon's gaze, smiled gently and pushed the plate closer. "Please," he said, his voice warm and encouraging. "Eat them all. You must be famished."

At first, Gordon nibbled on a cookie, his movements hesitant, his mind still clouded with the lingering effects of his ordeal. He savored the sweetness, the delicate texture, a small moment of pleasure in the midst of his turmoil.

But as the taste registered, as the warmth of the hot chocolate and the sweetness of the cookies began to soothe his frayed nerves, his hunger took over. He ate with a growing urgency, his movements becoming more frantic, more desperate. He devoured the cookies, one after another, his eyes fixed on the plate, his mind focused solely on the delicious taste.

He ate like a starving man, his body craving sustenance, his soul seeking comfort. In a matter of moments, the plate was empty, the last crumbs swept away. He looked up at Mr. Suhat, his cheeks flushed, his breath slightly ragged, and offered an awkward, sheepish smile.

"Does it taste good?" Mr. Suhat asked, his voice warm and gentle.

Gordon nodded, a genuine smile flickering across his face. "Yes," he said, his voice still a little hoarse. "Thank you, Mr. Suhat. For the food and the drink. It was… very good."

A comfortable silence settled over the room, the crackling of the fire and the drumming of the rain providing a soothing backdrop. Gordon, his stomach full and his nerves slightly calmed, felt a sense of clarity returning.

He looked at Mr. Suhat, his eyes filled with a newfound resolve. "Mr. Suhat," he said, his voice steady, "I think… I think I've solved the problem. The ghost problem in your house."

He paused, taking a deep breath. "There won't be any more… strange things happening here. It's over."

Mr. Suhat's face lit up with relief, a visible weight lifting from his shoulders. "Oh, Gordon," he exclaimed, his voice filled with gratitude. "That's wonderful news! Truly wonderful!"

He clasped Gordon's hands in his, his grip firm and warm. "Thank you, Gordon. Thank you so much. I can't tell you how much this means to me. You've brought peace back to my home."

He continued to express his gratitude, his words flowing freely, a torrent of heartfelt thanks. Gordon, still slightly overwhelmed by the events of the evening, could only offer awkward nods and mumbled acknowledgments. He wasn't used to such effusive praise.

"You deserve a great reward for your help, Gordon," Mr. Suhat said, his eyes twinkling. "A very great reward. I will make sure you are well compensated for your bravery and your skill."

Mr. Suhat, his face beaming, continued to sing Gordon's praises. "You're a young hero, Gordon," he declared, his voice filled with admiration. "A true hero. You've faced a terrifying threat and emerged victorious. You've brought peace to my home. You're a credit to your village!"

Gordon shrank in his chair, his cheeks flushing with a mixture of embarrassment and unease. The word "hero" felt heavy, foreign, a label he didn't deserve. The memory of consuming the High Priestess's soul flashed through his mind, a dark, unsettling image that contradicted the image Mr. Suhat was painting.

He lowered his gaze, his voice barely a whisper. "I'm not a hero, Mr. Suhat," he mumbled, his words laced with a quiet despair. "I'm just… a young man from the village. I have a little… power."

Mr. Suhat's tone shifted, becoming firm and resolute. "That's bullshit," he stated, his voice carrying a surprising edge. "Don't diminish what you've done, Gordon."

He leaned forward, his eyes fixed on Gordon's. "I've heard things, you know. Whispers. Stories. About what you've been doing around here. Helping people in trouble. Saving those poor people kidnapped by the Dark Cultists, risking your own life in the process. I know you've been a protector of this village."

He paused, his gaze softening slightly. "I don't know what else to call you if not a hero. You've consistently put yourself in harm's way for the sake of others. That's the very definition of heroism."

Gordon remained bowed, his shoulders slumped, his voice heavy with a quiet despair. "I… I did something bad, Mr. Suhat," he mumbled, his words barely audible. "Something… terrible. I don't deserve to be called a hero."

Mr. Suhat's expression softened, his eyes filled with understanding. He reached out and placed a comforting hand on Gordon's arm. "Gordon," he said gently, "no human being is free from mistakes. We all stumble, we all make choices we regret. Even the legendary heroes of the past, the ones whose names are etched in history, were not without their flaws."

"Is it true?" Gordon asked, his voice laced with a quiet disbelief. For him, heroes were figures of unwavering righteousness, paragons of virtue who defended truth and justice. The idea that they could be flawed, that they could commit wrongdoings, was almost inconceivable.

Mr. Suhat nodded, his expression serious. "It's true, Gordon. History is filled with complex figures, not saints. Even the greatest heroes had their moments of darkness."

He leaned forward, his voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper. "Take Logos, the Sunbringer. He was revered for his courage and his unwavering dedication to light, but he was also known for his ruthless pursuit of his enemies, sometimes crossing lines he shouldn't have. Tarun, the Earthshaker, was a champion of the common folk, but his temper was legendary, and he made enemies with his harsh judgement. Elrond, the Wise, known for his wisdom and foresight, was also known to be prideful and made mistakes because of it. And Valentino, the Dragonslayer, he once made a deal with a dark entity to gain power to defeat a great dragon, and the power almost consumed him."

"These were great heroes, Gordon," Mr. Suhat continued, "but they were also human. They made mistakes. They had regrets. It's not about being perfect, it's about what you do with your imperfections, how you learn from them, and how you strive to be better."