chapter 7 am his

We spent the entire night drinking and getting wasted, I dance around the room stinking of alcohol, while Carden sat on his arm chair, he clearly was getting the entertainment he wanted, as he chuckles at my childish behaviour, I spin around as the room spins with me, fire dances in my heart, I have not felt such joy since probably for ever, hardly one week ago, I thought I had lost it all, with no chance of ever reclaiming even a shred of what was taken from me, but now there is hope shining in the darkness, I got Cardens gaze he kindles feelings in me that I've not felt before, feelings that I only ever provoke in others, and it scares me how deep I have fallen for him, love that wasn't going to be reciprocated wasn't true love. Again he sweeps his eyes over me from top to bottom with a seductive smirk. He shrugs nonchalantly, his grin ever so charming, I suppose I can see why I find him so appealing. His voice as if turning a page to a darker chapter, suddenly takes on a serious tone,

" I want you Hazel, his warm breath hugs my earlobes as I shiver, our lips crash overwhelmed with burning passion, clothes are in the way both mine and his, his eyes piecing as an archer's aim, capture my gaze unyieldingly, seizing the moment he pulls me into him peppers a trail of kisses along my neck ending with a breathy whisper to my ears, " you're mine Hazel Gray, my wife my kitten and my life, his words sounded so sincere, but I gave little meaning to them due to my intoxicated state, all that mattered at that moment were his lips on mine, part of me is baffle by his restrain while another wanted him to go on, grasping my hips he tilts me back towards him, I find myself unable to put up any resistance. The boiling lust within me coaxes a moan out of me, a soft moan but a loud awakening. pulling me up like I weighed nothing I wrap my legs around his waist and arms around his neck, pain engulfs me as he thrust in slowly, I was completely wet, but still felt pain because it was my first time, Carden noticed what had happened and pulled away. " You're still a virgin, I nodded pulling his lips back into mine

" This is what I wanted, your vulnerability,

I wasn't thinking straight, but all I wanted was for this moment to last forever, " I want you to have.. it .. because I love you so much Mr Smith.

he got the confirmation he wanted and thrust in again this time more gentle and slow, when he was finally in, he increased the paste, making me moan even more, I was lost between a world of pleasure and pain, each thrust untiring and relentless as if trying to memorize the way he feels inside me, he squeeze me like he wanted to put a mark on me, to tell the world that I was only his, and yes I'm his, his kitten, his life.

It's been over a week since Carden went on a business trip, I barely survive leaving without him, I and Sky had grown so close, and she was like the sister I've always wanted, it's been two weeks since my wedding and I haven't heard from Dad or Emily.

Emily still wasn't replying my messages, and I wasn't ready to speak to Dad yet, but still I needed to make sure Emily was fine, I wanted to patch our relationship so badly that I decided to go back home,

I was seated at the back sit with Sky. during the drive to the mansion I've mentally prepared myself for all kinds of scenerios.

Like a ghostly inconspicuous figure I walk into the mansion. Dad was seated at the far end with aunty Lizzy, it looked like they were having a serious discussion but stopped immediately they noticed me,

" Hazel,.... Dad wraps me into a warm hug, Only God knows how much I have missed his hugs, " how are you dear, his all concerning voice echoed, I force a smile still unable to warm up to him," I'm fine Dad, " good day Mr and Mrs Gray Sky greeted them bowing slightly in respect

" This is Sky my PA. Sky meet my Dad and Aunty Lizzy, they all nodded except for aunty Lizzy who rolled her eyes, " would you mind getting us drinks from the kitchen, Aunty Lizzy said, looking at Sky. " Sorry aunty she's not a maid, she's my P,A I said elaborating on the last part, " what's the difference, she's here to serve you so let her do her job.

It was pointless arguing with her, " am here to see Emily, is she in, I scan around the mansion not getting a glimpse of her

" do you expect her to be jumping around happily after everything you did to her, my daughter hasn't left her room for weeks now, only God knows what must be happening to her.

" Enough..

Dad yelled, cutting her off. I pursed my lips holding back the rage that seizes me each time she blames me for every misfortune that happens in their lives, " I'll go check on Emily.

I knocked severally but got no response, " Emi.. it's Hazel can you please open the door. I could hear heavy breathing from the other end immediately I mentioned my name and in no time the door swings open, the sensation comes at her like a flood, pain, misery, desperation, envy all of it rushing on her so hard that I can't find the words to express it, she flashes me a glare that is meant to express irritation,but a hint of something else glint in her eyes.

" Emi... Are you alright, I stretch my hand towards her but she backs away, avoiding me like I was some sort of pleague,