Damn him. Damn him to hell
Alfred's boots thundered down the corridor, each step fueled by rage, but beneath that — shame. A deep, gnawing shame that clawed at his insides. His hands were shaking. His breath came in short, sharp bursts.
What the hell was that? What the hell did I just let happen?
He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, as if he could scrub away the taste of Elias. But it lingered — that familiar heat, that ghost of a past he'd buried beneath layers of duty and pride.
You knew better, Alfred. You always knew better.
He clenched his fists until his nails bit into his palms.
He's a snake. Always has been. Always will be. And you — you let him in again. Like some lovesick fool.
The memory of Elias's lips — soft, desperate, hungry — burned in his mind. The way he'd kissed back. Gods, he hadn't just kissed back. He'd melted into it, let himself want, let himself need.