Regression

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　My name is Miku Izayoi, and I was also called Tsukino Yoimachi for a while. I am active in the eyes of humans as an idol, and this name is still my pride.

　　——I can only sing. I am a mess in studying, sports, painting, handicrafts, cooking, etc., but I still have a singing voice, which is more beautiful than anyone else.

　　I use my singing to bring happiness to my fans. When they look up at me dancing on the stage and singing cute songs, my voice makes their faces full of smiles, and I feel happy too. Although more than 90% of my fans are men, in simple terms, most of them are idol otakus and fat otakus. Being happy because of other people's happiness, being an idol is such a happy job - the joy is hard to describe. Standing in the place I once longed for, letting people listen to my singing, just thinking about it, tears naturally welled up in the corners of my eyes.

　　That's what I thought at that time.

　　The tragedy started after I refused the TV producer's request to sleep with me. The reason I wanted to be called an idol was not to be on TV, but just to let people listen to my singing.

　　Now think about it, if I knew that I would be raped in the future, and by a group of hooligans I didn't know... At that time, I might as well just sleep with the TV producer, or be tough and push Shidao down directly, but that's a story for later.

　　After a while, scandals and fabricated negative stories about me were everywhere... my relationships with men, abortion experiences, orgies, drug abuse, etc. The disgusting content dominated the headlines of entertainment gossip news at that time, and the Internet was full of insults against me.

　　Without a doubt, it was the work of the TV producer whom I had rejected. Just like that, I lost my position in the agency... But I still have those fans who support me, they will definitely believe in me, I still have my singing voice, and I have not lost my place...

　　"I will always like Tsukino",

　　"I love you",

　　"I am willing to die for Tsukino"

　　The fans who once said these words changed their attitude 180 degrees and changed

　　their minds. "Bitch" ,

　　"whore" and

　　"slut"

　　were still the better insults. I just had to endure the ones who sent razor blades to my home, cursed dolls, and threw paint on my door.

　　"Abortion means killing a child, right? Isn't this a murderer? What are the police doing? Why don't they arrest this murderer?"

　　"Hey, how many times have you and your boyfriend done it? I'll give you money so I can have some fun, okay?"

　　"What's the next orgies party like? Haha, can you take me along?"

　　This level of kicking someone when they're down is commonplace.

　　"Don't sing with that dick-sucking mouth of yours, okay? You smell piss when you open your mouth."

　　"You're more suited to moaning. If you perform moaning at your next concert, I'll come."

　　"You must have been lip-syncing before. How can a prostitute sing so well?"

　　...

　　My singing voice was rejected. They would rather believe gossip than believe me. They look at me as if I were trash on the street. The current Miku Tsuna has learned this from these hateful men.

　　I thought I gave them happiness, but these people who I thought were my fans turned around and stabbed me in the heart with their words. Even the value of my existence and my singing... In the end, they like my image, not my singing. There are fewer and fewer people coming to

　　the handshake and autograph sessions. The last time, the number of security guards was more than the number of fans. It's really ridiculous.

　　At the concert with only a few dozen people, I was thrown eggs, but I still kept smiling, wanting to impress them again with my singing. I put my lips close to the microphone... The melody of the song has sounded, but I can't hear my voice.

　　I lost my voice.

　　The voice that had been supporting me all along, I lost it too.

　　The male doctor said that I lost my voice due to a psychological disorder. At that time, I had no voice and could not express my hatred for him. My hatred for men probably started from that time.

　　I have no value in existing without my voice. I feel desperate about this world where I can't hear my own voice. I can cut my wrists, take sleeping pills, or run into the train tracks. Just these small actions can eliminate my existence.

　　Just when I wanted to put these ideas into practice,

　　"God" appeared in front of me.

　　(——You who are disappointed with humanity, you who are desperate about the world. Do you want power? Power to change the world. "

　　Of course I want this kind of thing, because the voices lost by those ugly men, because the voices lost by those boring people, the voices that are more important than my life, I want to take them back.

　　I made such a wish to "God" - my voice, finally returned to me in a more beautiful form.

　　The elf - Miku Izayoi, those people gave me a better name "Singer", but I prefer the name Tsukino Yoimachi.

　　After all sorts of things, I moved from my original city to Tengu City, and used my ability to control myself and successfully enrolled in Ryudanji Girls' College. I chose this school just because there were no men here.

　　Then, half a year later, I met the first person who my ability did not work for, "Shiori", no, it should be called Shidao at this time.

　　The first human being who got along with me as an equal.

　　The first person who was willing to affirm me.

　　The man who saved my heart.

　　... "Darling", my heart feels warm when I think of his face.

　　I'm not stupid, I know I'm just one of his jobs, and he didn't even want to get close to me voluntarily at the beginning, but the person he often talked to secretly was called "Ratatosk", and that guy wanted him to get along with me so that he could seal me. Don't underestimate my sensitivity to sounds, Miku-sama, I can even hear the sound of them planning to Shidao, and there are also the voices of four women... One of them is a girl called Kotori or Commander, she sounds only about 15 years old, and the other three are adult women over 20 years old.

　　I asked him if he would come to rescue me if I encountered the same danger as Tohka I, Shidou insisted that it was a matter of course. I also think that was the truth, because no matter who is in danger, even if it is not me, Shidou will help. He is that kind of person. I am not his special case, but Shidou is my special case. I don't hate him. Besides, if I want something, I just have to fight for it. Isn't this my usual style?

　　However... if he sees me covered in semen... it is impossible for him to be disgusted. If it is Shidou, he will look at me with sympathy and pity... please... this will only hurt me more, so I don't want to be hurt again.

　　Speaking of which, did that woman named Reine wash my hair? I don't know what brand of shampoo she used, and those hooligans actually ejaculated on my head...

　　"There are no physical injuries, only psychological ones..." As my consciousness gradually became clear, I heard Lingyin's voice. She should be in the hospital or on the air carrier with a very complicated name.

　　"Psychological trauma? Is there a solution for this?" It was Kotori's voice. I really wanted to touch her ponytails. They must be as soft as Yoshino's hair. It's a pity that I can't move now. It's not that I'm too tired to move after being raped all night. I just don't want to open my eyes and face them because I'm too shy... Psychological trauma? That kind of thing doesn't exist. Compared with the despair I've experienced, having my body defiled by gangsters is much better.

　　"We need to wait until Miku wakes up to be sure. This incident must have been a big blow to her... When she wakes up, just pretend that she knows nothing."

　　"Then when will she wake up?"

　　"I don't know... Logically, she should wake up..."

　　In fact, I woke up a long time ago.

　　"Hey~ Kotori~ I don't have anything to do here, can you let me go?" It was a silly and frivolous voice, and it was impossible for me not to recognize who it was, another "special case" of mine. Now I am still listening to my old CDs, and I recognize my past self and my voice, not because of my appearance, nor my age... just because of "my" voice... If I had known him earlier, I wouldn't have despaired of this world.

　　By the way, he came to Amamiya City in February, and I came in April, and he seemed to be one year older than Shidou... Doesn't that mean he is the same age as me? There are too many things in common.

　　"Wait, wait until Miku wakes up before you leave."

　　"But I can't help you here... I haven't watched the animation from last night either... why don't you just let me go first?"

　　He doesn't care about my condition at all. He wants to watch animation more than me, which is a bit annoying. Besides, when he hugged me, he even touched my breasts, which is really disgusting.

　　"Miku seems to be waking up..." Oh no, when I secretly opened my eyes to observe my surroundings, it seems that Reine discovered me. Now they are probably looking at me.

　　It's over... I'm so embarrassed... If possible, I really want to be alone for a while... It would be much more convenient if I had the power of elves at this time. Why not pretend that I have suffered a severe psychological trauma and lost my memory, and then choose a better time to return to normal... I am an idol after all, isn't acting something that I can do easily?

　　I made up my mind, and just like in the TV dramas, I slowly opened my eyes when they were all around me… I could feel the bed shaking with every step that fat guy took, how much did he weigh, maybe 190 pounds?

　　I half-closed my eyes, rolled my eyeballs and looked around, pretending to have just woken up.

　　"Miku… how do you feel…"

　　"Ba… daddy… hug me" I kept my eyes on the fat guy's face… I called out this name clearly…

　　It's over ahh ...

　　"Eh? Wait? Reine? What's going on?"

　　"It may be due to excessive stimulation that the child has regressed... There are many examples of this..." Although I am very grateful for your analysis, it is not the case at all. You can just say that I was confused due to sleep! Don't add inexplicable settings to me! Look, isn't Qin Li dumbfounded.

　　"Infant, infant regression!?"

　　"Yes, in this case, you can only follow her wishes and not give her more stimulation."

　　"Follow her means..."

　　Don't follow my wishes! And you fat guy, don't come over here with a lustful look on your face and drooling!

　　"Good girl~ It's daddy~"

　　So disgusting… I got goosebumps all over my body, he actually pulled me up and hugged me… As expected… he really is consistent inside and out, he doesn't hide his sexual desire, even though he saw my dirty side, he still hugged me tightly for some obscene purpose, because… my breasts are pressing against him!!! What are you grinning at!!

　　"Even if what's written in the gossip magazines is true, I also like Tsukino, who made her sing so beautifully and have such breasts"

　　You didn't even recognize her in person, and you still said you like her… Are you focusing all your attention on my breasts?

　　Ah, come on, why do I have to be hugged by a man other than Shidou...

　　If it were Shidou, would he hug me so tightly right now? Would he probably touch my head and say "It's okay now"? Is this the comfort I want? ...Huh? Anyway, why did I hug him...I feel like...I want to cry...This is too unfair.

　　"Reine! Is there no other way! They are like this..." Kotori looked at us with big eyes, looking very anxious.

　　"Electric shock therapy or impact therapy, which one do you want to choose?"

　　Reine held the stun gun in her left hand and the hammer in her right hand. She didn't want either of them!!!

　　"Uh...forget it."

　　Good job Kotori!

　　"Well, you don't have to worry. According to past cases, the child will recover on his own after a period of rest. After natural recovery, the person usually forgets what happened during the period of regression."

　　What kind of setting is this! It's really great! Can't I do whatever I want this way! ? When the time is right, I can pretend to be back to normal... Everything I have done will be blamed on the abnormal me...

　　If that's the case! !

　　"Mom, Mom..."

　　I shook off this disgusting fat man and threw myself into Qin Li's arms.

　　"Ahhhhhhhh!!?"

　　Ah, Kotori's breasts are so flat, so cute... ahhahaha... girls are really awesome...

　　"Mom... kiss..."

　　"No... mmm... Reine save me... mmm..."

　　Kotori's lips are so soft, I'll try Yoshino's next time, and I can't let go of Kaguya and Yuzuru , I have to touch Tohka's breasts and kiss her.

　　I'm so happy to be able to be intimate with a girl legally, Kotori, don't move, I won't be able to lick your face if I do.

　　"Oh, what an unpredictable elf, the fluctuation of this number is too big." Reine seems to sigh, I'll be intimate with her later.