Two Roads

WORDS

Those words broke me.

I can't explain,

How I felt.

So I'll use words,

And I hope,

I don't disappoint you further.

I felt the pain,

The deep seated pain.

I won't lie to you,

The tears threatened to fall,

And I wonder,

What exactly is wrong with me?

I held you close once,

But now I'm just a memory.

Why am I this way?

If this is popularity,

I want to have no part of it.

If this is maturity,

I'd rather be a kid forever.

I hurt you,

And it broke me.

I hurt you,

Again and again and again.

Every time worse than the first.

My little one,

What have I done?

I just don't know,

This side of me.

What am I little one?

I'm a monster,

One who uses people.

I'm broken and I don't just know,

The way to let people know.

I fear commitments,

Because I don't trust me.

I don't trust this me,

The one that hurts people,

Irrespective of who they are.

This is me little one,

I'm the most messed up,

Most broken of all.