Clarity.

She failed again but this time even more so the jump wasn't even close to the goal and by now she was lower to the wall.

It didn't matter whether it was bad footwork or she was tired or she simply missed the timing.

The matter of fact was she was going to get turned to a pulp and even the little shield couldn't do anything about that.

She looked in front of her were the wall was coming to her with impossible speeds, the massive red wall had no balconies no safety protocols after all it was the back side of the building and there wasn't a need for any of that. Still looking closely you would see it at least had windows, on the second floor. The place was once upon a time an office and that side was a fashion attraction of sorts.

Still she jumped with the objective to reach the rooftop and even though she failed it wasn't so spectacularly bad that reaching the second floor was any possibility she failed the jump by one meter of depth witch meant she needed to skydive another 4,5 meters below to have any chance of reaching it.

Such a thing is not impossible but now that she was on the air and her body was going with speeds her head barely registered readjusting her fall was nothing sort of miraculous.

So she attempted just that by stretching her left hand out and hitting the orb she created a cycle of light. But it didn't envelope her in didn't try to soften her fall. Instead it got created as a pincer to push her straight down to the streets redirecting her faill.

Everything falls to luck now. And by luck she reached it and like a shooting star shattered the window and bounced inside.

And i mean she literally bounced by how much force her jump had and that force being reapplied trough her light cycle. The window the offices, couches the dolls nothing was speared as her body got thrown like a doll bouncing trough them like a ball.

But she didn't pass out in fact she screamed in pain every part of her body in pain in fact she was in so much pain that her body uncontrollably jerked trying to get up.

Her shattered bones tried to get her up while her body tried to calm down. She was a mess a living mess but still. She moaned in silence while trying to get her bearings until eventually she stood up.

Walking was surprisingly easy every step bringed pain but also certainty that she could keep going. She didn't even feel tired, just messed up by the fall by now she limbed through the hallways in autopilot.She knew where she was going but still she was unable to think of anything else besides going there.

In fact her head was in an eerie silence for the first time since that Day she could think clearly or even better not think at all. The only thing her body did was walking steadily to the roof and yet she found herself unable to think about anything else as if such thoughts didn't exist.

Needless to say she felt weird about that she never felt anything like that, being used to constantly think constantly worry she felt that silence was bad but after a while she realized it wasn't that she couldn't think at all, in fact it was the fact that there wasn't a need to think that she didn't. Feeling that if the need arises she would be able to come up with plans much faster right now she could only describe this feeling only as soaring through the clouds.

Eventually she reached the rooftop and now only one jump septated her from her home it wasn't the hardest but it too was dangerous if she failed. But her feet moved on her own in her head she already succeeded and in fact her brain registered the thought of her landing before she even started running.

And she succeeded in fact she succeeded so much that by the force she putted to her jump she uncomfortably runned straight to the door.

Ouch what the hell since when i grew so strong. In fact right now she realised how much different her body felt. She was so focused on the chances on her brain she didn't notice how light she felt how her very arms seeped of strength she felt she could crush rocks with a simple punch and reach the sky with a simple jump her eyes too looked the night with eerie calmness like everything was going both in slow motion and fast forward simultaneously.

Wait wait since when i can see so clearly in the night yea some lights exist but its around twelve in the night. But honestly the biggest change she felt was confidence, it didn't escape her notice how her brain thought that she reached the other side before she even tried and now even her chest and most importantly her heart too breathed with that confidence it wasn't a matter of if it was a matter of want.

This is dangerous.

For a pragmatic person like her to not thinking things to an obsessive stretch was foreign thought she survived and fighted thinking of every detail to turn it to her advantage.

But also she didn't feel that her thinking right now was wrong, just different, her entire consciousness thought as if she was the centre of the universe. Instead of trying to reach about a foreign knowledge she could right now enforce it by herself. Not to look to something else to help her but to use it to win. Weird but also fascinating like nothing in the world could separate her from her goal whatever that may be.

Did i reach it? Did it finally happen? I have finally obtained clarity? After so much effort and time i did it!

When her father asked her why she was so desperate to go to the library even though it was clearly dangerous why she was so hell bent to watch and learn the art of the doctor's she simply awnsered.

Because i have no other choice if i want to help you fight these monsters. You said it yourself by themselves they are weak the reason we died was because we grew scared and petrified.

So yes i will discard my fear to grow into someone who can stand by your side. No matter the cost.

And today she did even though her methods were anything but optional.

And so she reached to the vent and grabbed the white robe ready to head home.

When a familiar fatherly voice was heard trough the darkness. Hey honey were are you going aren't you going to say hi?