Sebastian's POV
New York City | 2:14 a.m.
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I don't remember the walk home.
I remember the lights. The pounding in my head. The taste of old whiskey and that girl's lipstick still smeared somewhere on my collar.
But mostly, I remember his voice.
"You want to be nothing like me? Then stop acting like me."
Rain Chen.
The name means nothing and everything all at once.
I keep seeing his face every time I blink. The smug curl of his mouth. The way he said son like it tasted rotten and he enjoyed every bite.
He was lying. He had to be.
Except…
He knew her name.
He said my name.
He looked at me like he'd already read the final page of my story.
The wind cuts through my hoodie like razors as I stagger up our brownstone's steps. It's dead quiet. Most lights are off except one—the kitchen.
Of course.
I open the door softly. Try not to make a sound.
But she's there.
Sky.
Mom.
She's in the kitchen, curled up on the breakfast nook bench, arms folded, head resting gently against the window. A single dish sits on the table, covered in foil, still warm.
My plate.
She must've waited.
Even now, even after I've gone off the rails, crashed and burned and kissed strangers in bathrooms and smoked like I had nothing left to lose—
She's still waiting up with dinner.
I swallow hard.
My eyes sting and I tell myself it's just the cold.
I don't deserve her.
I walk quietly, step by step, hoping not to wake her. I peel off my jacket, toss it aside, and pause in the hallway where I can't see her face, but I can hear her soft breathing.
She still sleeps light.
Like she's waiting for something bad to happen.
Maybe she always has.
I press my back to the wall. Close my eyes.
That bastard's voice echoes again.
"If you don't tell her the truth, I will."
And the thing is—I don't even know what the truth is.
Is he really him?
Is he the reason she never talks about my father? The reason she changed schools, cities, names?
God, I feel sick.
I head upstairs. My hands shake as I brush my teeth, as I strip out of my smoke-stained shirt and throw it in the laundry like that's going to wash away the shame. My reflection stares back at me in the bathroom mirror—bloodshot eyes, a bruised neck, a liar.
I walk back down. Just once more.
Just to look.
She hasn't moved.
Still dreaming. Still trusting.
I want to punch a wall. I want to cry. I want to tell her everything and scream until she makes it stop—but instead, I just stand there like a fucking coward and whisper:
"Sorry."
Then I head back upstairs.
And I close the door.
And lie awake in silence.
Waiting for the truth to shatter the only person who still loves me like I'm worth saving.