The Weight of Her Silence

Sebastian Maddox – POV

I didn't know how I got home.

One minute I was in Rain's apartment, the voicemails still echoing in my head. The next, I was standing in front of our door, key in my hand, stomach twisted like barbed wire.

I couldn't breathe.

I couldn't look up.

Because I didn't know how I'd face her now—not when every time I closed my eyes, I saw her in a hospital gown, alone. I saw her voice crack as she whispered my name to a man who never picked up.

I opened the door.

The lights were dim. The smell of ginger tea still lingered—she'd probably made it for herself. She always got sick when she worried.

I kicked my shoes off quietly.

And then I saw her.

On the couch. In that ridiculous, oversized pink hoodie I always made fun of. Her hair was messy, glasses slipping down her nose, a book open on her lap. She wasn't reading it.

She was just waiting.

She always waited.

Her eyes flicked up when I walked in. Her whole face lit up like it always did—smile soft, like I hadn't shattered curfews, lied through my teeth, or become everything she feared.

"Hey, baby," she whispered.

I didn't say anything.

I couldn't.

I dropped my bag. Crossed the room in three steps. And I—

I hugged her.

Hard.

Like I could hold back every goddamn voicemail. Every unanswered call. Every night she cried alone, whispering to a belly that kicked when it heard a name that never showed up.

She froze for a second, surprised.

Then she wrapped her arms around me like she'd been waiting forever.

She kissed my cheek like she always did. Brushed my hair back like I was still five. Hummed under her breath, some dumb tune she used to sing when I had nightmares.

But this time, I was the nightmare.

I didn't say a word.

I didn't tell her what I'd heard.

I just buried my face into her neck and whispered, "I'm sorry."

She pulled back, confused. "For what?"

I shook my head.

I couldn't tell her. Not yet.

She didn't need to know I'd heard every word she begged him with. Every voicemail he kept, unopened, like trophies.

She didn't need to know I finally understood.

That she wasn't just my mom.

She was the girl he left behind.

And somehow, she still managed to raise me with love.

I hugged her tighter.

And for once—I didn't want to let go.