[BL] UNAPOLOGETIC

(second couple from Egotistic)



Nathaniel didn’t particularly have a will to live. It wasn’t that he wished to die either, nor that he clung to life. Rather, he simply didn’t know— because it was something he had never really thought about.



His life had always been overshadowed by someone he’d known since childhood— an alpha prime with red eyes whose actions spoke as though he despised him.



He claimed it wasn’t hate, but everything he did was the kind of thing no one could possibly do unless they loathed you.



Never once did he do anything Nathaniel could consider kind. Logan constantly reminded him that he didn't belong, that no one could ever stand to be with him, and because Nathaniel was dirty, only he could ever tolerate him.



He’d do things that left Nathaniel in tears, only to show up later with a remedy for those very tears.



Love, he said? Don’t be absurd. Every memory Nathaniel had of his childhood with him was soaked in misery.



But then— could it have all been a misunderstanding? Even so, forgiveness was still too far out of reach. No sane person shows love that way. And yet, Nathaniel couldn’t deny the shameful truth— maybe all those tangled feelings were just uncharted emotions he never allowed himself to explore.