Every memory hit me like a physical blow. The disgust on Elara's face. The shock in her eyes when I accused her. The weakness in her voice as she tried to explain. All the signs I'd willfully ignored.
"What have I done?" I whispered again, my bloodied knuckles throbbing with each heartbeat.
The memory of that night burned through my mind with excruciating clarity. I'd tracked Elara's scent to Rowan's dorm, convinced she was studying late. When I opened that door and saw her on his bed, shirt partially unbuttoned, my world had imploded.
But now, replaying the scene with new eyes, I saw everything I'd missed. Her glassy stare. The unnatural slackness in her limbs. The slurred way she'd said my name.
"Rhys... help... something's wrong..."
Words I'd dismissed as lies. As acting.
I slammed my fist into the wall again, welcoming the fresh burst of pain. "I left her there," I growled through clenched teeth. "I left her drugged and helpless with that monster."