Terms of Goodbye

Selena sat by the window, knees drawn to her chest, as the sky shifted from black to soft gray. The sun was rising, but it didn't bring warmth, just the cold clarity that today wouldn't be kind.

She heard Peter's car pull into the driveway around 7 a.m.

He was home.

Her body tensed, the stillness around her cracking like ice under pressure. A few minutes later, she heard the front door open and close. Then the keys dropped in the bowl by the hallway. His shoes shuffled across the floor like everything was normal. Like they were still a functioning husband and wife.

Selena stood up.

She didn't wait for him to come to her. She walked straight into the kitchen, where he was pouring himself a cup of coffee like nothing had happened. His hair was disheveled, shirt wrinkled. He looked like hell.

Good.

He turned when he heard her.

"Morning," he said, like they hadn't just lived through a complete disaster.

"Really?" Her voice came out hollow. "That's how you're starting this?"

Peter sipped his coffee, eyes heavy. "I have a headache, Sel. Let's not—"

"We've been avoiding this since last week, and I'm so done with you!," she said sharply, her voice rising. "You humiliated me on Brian's birthday. You got drunk, you made a scene, and you told everyone about Jack and me like it was some kind of twisted show."

Peter set the mug down and leaned against the counter. "I was drunk."

"You were cruel."

"I was angry," he bit out.

"Oh, now you're angry?" Selena stepped closer. "You're angry because I actually accepted the open marriage you suggested? Because I dared to feel something after you emotionally starved me for over a year?"

Peter's jaw clenched. "You were supposed to play along, not fall in love."

She froze.

"So that's what this is about?" she whispered. "I broke the unspoken rule? That I could sleep with someone else as long as I didn't care?"

"You weren't supposed to love him," he said, each word like a punch.

"I didn't plan to love him," she hissed. "I didn't even feel love yet at that time, but you planned to fall for Nanny, didn't you?"

Peter's eyes flickered, guilt crawling in.

"You think I didn't know?" she asked, her voice breaking. "You pulled away from me, little by little, until I became a stranger in my own home. You slept on the couch. You stopped looking at me. You stopped touching me. You left me in the dark and made me think it was all my fault."

Peter ran a hand through his hair, frustrated. "I didn't want to hurt you."

"But you did. And when I finally stopped waiting for you to come back, when I stopped begging to be seen, then you painted me as the villain."

Silence.

Peter looked at her then, really looked at her, for the first time in months.

"You love him, do you?" he asked quietly.

Selena blinked. "I don't know."

"That's not a no."

"I don't know how I feel anymore," she admitted, raw and aching. "But I know I don't love you."

His face paled. "Selena…"

She shook her head. "You were the first man I ever trusted. The one I thought I'd grow old with. And you gave up on me without even saying goodbye."

Peter's hands trembled slightly. "I didn't mean for it to be like this."

"But it has ended," she said, her voice firm now. "And I think we both knew it long before Jack ever came into the picture."

He looked like he wanted to argue, to say something to fight back, but nothing came out.

"I want a divorce, Peter."

The words hung between them, final and irreversible.

Peter nodded slowly, then looked away. "If that's what you want."

Selena almost collapsed from the weight of it. Not because she wasn't ready, but because it still hurt to bury something that had once meant everything.

She turned to leave, but Peter stopped her.

"Sel," he said softly.

She paused at the door, not turning around.

"Did he ever love you?" he asked.

Her throat closed.

"I don't know," she said. "But I know he didn't lie about it."