The bookstore smelled like old pages and quiet conversations. A comfort to most. But today, for Raka, the silence pressed against him—not like peace, but like something unfinished. Something left unsaid.
He wandered without direction, the bell above the door still echoing faintly in his ears. The cashier gave him a polite nod. He nodded back, barely registering it.
It wasn't that she didn't show up.
It was why.
Nayla had seemed excited—genuinely. The texts, the teasing, the way her smile lingered in his mind all week like a bookmark he kept returning to. He hadn't imagined it. Something had been there.
Hadn't it?
He found himself in the poetry section. Her favorite.
His fingers traced the spines of books she would have stopped for. Slim volumes with watercolor covers, delicate fonts, titles that sounded more like confessions than collections. He picked up one with a pale blue cover and turned it over in his hands. It felt like her quiet, thoughtful, the kind of book that said more between the lines than on them.
She would have read the first page.
Then the last.
Then picked one in the middle at random.
Always out of order. Always with care.
He sank onto the wooden bench nearby and opened it, flipping through gently, as if afraid to bruise the pages.
And there it was.
"There are people who disappear not because they want to,But because they don't know how to stay."
He stared at the words.
That was Nayla.
He knew it in his bones. In the pauses between her replies. In the way her eyes darted away when something got too close to the truth. In the soft retreats that always followed their moments of closeness.
He wasn't angry. Just… tired.
Tired of being the one who stayed. The one who waited. The one who noticed.
And yet he was here. In her favorite place. Thinking of her. Holding a book she might have loved.
He stood, walked to the counter, and bought it.
No message. No questions. No explanations.
Still, he bought it.
Because some part of him believed she'd come back. Not out of obligation. Not even out of apology.
But because maybe, just maybe, she'd find her way to staying.
And when she did, he wanted something to give her.
Not as a gift. Not as a gesture.
But as proof.
That he hadn't stopped caring.
Not yet.
Not ever.