Stay or Go

Alexander sat in his car, engine idling low, headlights washing pale light across the pavement outside the dance studio.

Inside, he could faintly hear the muted beat of music—strings, maybe, or piano—just soft enough to make the world feel far away. The kind of sound that only lived in certain buildings, at certain times of day, when everything else quieted down. He knew it wasn't the actual performance yet. Just final rehearsal. Just bodies finding rhythm and memory before an audience ever saw it.

He could stay.

He could park, cut the engine, walk in through the side door like he belonged there. Find a seat in the back, maybe near the exit. Watch for a few minutes. Nothing dramatic. No big statement.

She wouldn't expect him.

But… maybe she'd notice.

Maybe she'd see him.

And that idea—that possibility—wrapped around him in a way that made him deeply uncomfortable.

Because it would mean something.

To her? Maybe not right away.

But to him?

Too much.

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He leaned back in his seat, staring up at the roof of the car.

This wasn't supposed to be anything.A girl cried in front of him.He didn't flinch.She remembered.They talked.They texted.She asked for a ride.

Simple.

But the space she now took up in his head didn't feel simple.

He liked her texts. Looked forward to them. Liked how she could joke without trying too hard. Liked that she didn't expect him to fill silence with noise. Liked how her eyes softened when she was tired and forgot to act like she wasn't.

And maybe he liked her, too.

But saying that—even to himself—felt like opening a door he wasn't ready to walk through.

He'd seen what happened when people let themselves feel too much. When they got used to someone showing up and then watched them stop. He didn't do messes. He didn't do maybes. And whatever this was between them—it was a maybe with no clear destination.

So no.

He wasn't going to stay.

Not because he didn't care.

But because he was scared that if he did stay… he might not be able to stop.

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He put the car in gear.

The WRX rolled away from the curb with a soft rumble, headlights cutting through the golden blur of the evening.

Behind him, the music faded into nothing.

And for the rest of the drive home, Alexander didn't turn the radio on.

He didn't need it.

His thoughts were loud enough.

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Later that night, as he stood barefoot in his room, shoulders sore from leaning over an engine all afternoon, he saw her message light up his screen:

Elena (9:08 PM):

 > Made it through alive. Thanks again for the rescue. I owe you another one.

His chest tightened in that strange way it always did now when her name showed up.

He replied, keeping it simple. Controlled.

Alexander:

 > Proud of the patient. And you. Told you you'd be fine.

He considered saying more.Asking how it went.Telling her he almost came in.Admitting that part of him wanted to see her on that stage more than he wanted to admit.

But he didn't.

Instead, he turned his phone face-down on the nightstand, let the screen go dark, and laid back on his bed in silence.

Sleep didn't come right away.

But thoughts of her did.

Quiet.

Uninvited.

And persistent.