so little..

The night was dark with me walking through the deserted road of sawai the city known for its lush forest and wild life.I have spent 23 years of my life here without having known the pains and joys of life.This was the city who saw me being grown from a little girl to a young women but now I am leaving it for an unknown future with little to nothing money in my pocket.I knew it wouldn't be easy but I still had to take this step for leaving that depressing life which weighs heavy on me.Before saying anything else let me tell you my story.I was born and brought up in a Hindu Brahmin family and when the word Brahmin is used people mostly imagine a spiritually uplifted family following the religious path but my family wasn't like that except my mother,no one in family was religious.So whatever I learnt about religion I learnt it from my mother.We are four siblings and I am the youngest one.I don't remember much from my childhood but something that I remember was that I never saw my parents fight which made think that we were a happy family without any problems which made me have so little aspirations for life because I was never an ambitious person whatever I had was sufficient for me.But then this illusion of mine was broken little by little when I grew up and when she came into our life.