The dawn broke quietly, but the world inside Shèng Lín felt anything but calm.
His body was still sore from the night before, marked by the Prince's kisses and possessive touches that still lingered on his skin like fire.
The Prince lay beside him, half-awake, one arm draped around Shèng Lín's waist as if afraid he would vanish if he let go.
Shèng Lín stared at the ceiling, every breath heavy with regret and unspoken words.
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> "Why didn't I stop him?"
"Why did I let myself want it?"
"Why can't I tell him the truth?"
Every question carved deeper into him.
Because if he spoke the name, two lives would be destroyed:
The life of the person who had raised him from the gutter, who had saved him and turned him into what he was.
And the life of the Prince—who would lose faith in everything he believed in once he learned who had betrayed him.
Shèng Lín turned his head slightly, watching the Prince's sleeping face.
The slight frown even in sleep.
The parted lips.
The faint, almost childish trust in the way he leaned into Shèng Lín's warmth.
> "If I tell him, I will lose him."
"If I don't tell him, he will keep chasing the truth until it breaks him."
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He slipped out of bed quietly, dressing as the Prince stirred.
But before he could leave, a hand caught his wrist.
> "Where are you going?" the Prince's hoarse morning voice asked.
> "I need air," Shèng Lín replied softly, without meeting his eyes.
> "You're lying."
Shèng Lín froze.
> "Stay," the Prince said, sitting up, hair messy, the blanket sliding off his shoulders. "You're not running from me again."
Shèng Lín's throat tightened. "I'm not running."
> "Then look at me and say it."
Slowly, Shèng Lín lifted his gaze. Their eyes met, and the Prince's burned with hurt, longing, and a dangerous promise.
> "Who is it?" the Prince whispered. "Who sent you?"
Shèng Lín opened his mouth.
And closed it.
> "I can't."
The Prince's jaw clenched, but he didn't yell. Instead, he rose, stepping close, tilting Shèng Lín's chin up.
> "Do you trust me?"
Tears burned at Shèng Lín's eyes, but he blinked them away.
> "I trust you with everything," he whispered, "but I can't betray them."
The Prince's hands tightened on his jaw, their foreheads pressing together.
> "Then I'll keep asking. Every day. Every night. Until you do."
Shèng Lín closed his eyes, a single tear slipping free.
> "And I'll keep saying I can't."
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That morning, Shèng Lín left the Prince's chamber to fulfill his duties, but his mind was a storm.
He fought with the soldiers during drills, taking hits he didn't need to take.
He practiced until his hands bled, until he could no longer think about the warmth of the Prince's embrace or the way he called his name like a promise.
But at night, when he returned to the Prince's chamber, the Prince was waiting.
And without words, they fell into each other's arms again.
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They were trapped in this tender, desperate cycle:
The Prince, trying to save him.
Shèng Lín, trying to protect him.
Both too stubborn to let go.
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