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" Fine, Go!. Go tell everyone. I'll be here waiting for their ridicules. I knew I should never trust you, I was so wrong thinking you were different" She sobbed.

He stopped, counting the roof.

" Crying won't change my mind"

" It's not like you know everything in my dairy!. You can go exploit it!. I don't care!" She continued crying, even tho she was scared.

Clover sighed before facing her

" Fine. I won't tell your secret" He said and she got stunned.

" Do you even know my secret?" She asked and clover faced turned quite pale inside-out.

He cleared his throat.

" Why would you ask that. Of course I do. I read every piece you wrote in your diary." He said.

" Y..you did?. A..are you lying to me?"

" Why would I lie to you all this while?. I mean..

why wouldn't I read your diary when it was with me. Come on" He said pulling her closer by her waist.

She walked forward and hugged him.

" Please don't tell anyone. They're my insecurities. Please Clover. I'll love you more if you keep it a secret, I swear" She said and he curbed her head.

He sighed, staring at the roof. Somehow, he didn't feel comfortable. He needed to tell her.

" Cami?" He called.

" Mn?"

" I need to tell you something" He said and she slowly left him.

" I'm listening" She said. He slowly cupped her cheeks.

" I...I.." He stuttered. " I..I..don't know what you're hiding. I didn't read your diary, Cami" He finally confessed.

Cami stood fixed, just staring at him unfazed. He knew she was surprised.

" I'm sorry pinkie, I...I...took it too far, I know." He said.

" You're lying right?" She asked.

" I'm sorry" He said with difficulty.

" So you've been lying to me!. You made me do what I didn't want to do just for your own selfish interest!" She yelled bitterly.

" Look...I only flipped through the pages but I didn't really read it. I find reading boring that's why I didn't care to go through what you wrote. I'm sorry I lied."

" You're not sorry!!. You've been using me!" She cried and sniffed hard. " You've been f**king using me!. How dare you!!!" She cried hardly.

" Pinkie...

" Don't ever call me that!. I'm not your pinkie!. I'm never yours. You're a big betrayal and a deceiver. You kept lying to me and I kept....I hate you!, I hate you so much. Game over, thanks for playing me. Player!" She cried.

" Cami...Cami please!" He held her but she flung off arm with all her strength before running out of the place quickly.

She didn't even notice Jordan who'd been standing behind the wall, watching them.

" Damn sh*t!!" Clover spat as he grabbed his front hair, leaning his back on the wall.

~

Jordan walked down the corridor and when he finally found cami, he felt himself at ease.

He met her crying as she sat in front of her locker, hugging her legs and trapping her face inbetween her thighs.

He dropped his pillows down and squatted to her height before stroking her hair gently.

" Camelia.." He called.

" Go away, Jordan. I just want to be alone and cry till I'm okay" She said and he stayed calm for a moment.

" Should I wait here for you" He asked but she didn't reply as she hiccuped loudly.

He sat a bit father away, giving her space to embrace the environment around her.

He leaned back his head as his eyes moved around the roof. After hearing everything that happened between them, he felt so bad for her.

It was so complicated that he didn't even know how to start talking to her.

" I heard everything" He said and she slowly raised her head, tho she was messed up, she's still gorgeous.

" Y..you did?" She asked and he looked at her, nodding his head.

" You didn't tell me all this were happening to you. Last time I asked, you left my question hanging. I wouldn't have let this happen If I was aware" He said.

She looked away as her nose went red.

" I was scared of letting anyone else know cos...I didn't want it to spread out that I had a secret" She said.

" I hate it that Clover forced you to date him. I saw both of you together, I thought you were truly in love, you smiled with him, hugged him and almost spend all your time with him, despite all this I knew something was behind your sad smile, Cami" He said and she started to cry again.

" It's true. I'm a weakling. My mom was right. Taylor was right, everyone was right. I gave him too much freedom to use me and now I hate it that those things happened to me blindly" She said.

He moved closer.

" Hey, it's not your fault, cami" He said.

" I really messed up everything. I'd never fall for any guy's trick any more. I swear I won't" She spat and Jordan looked at her while chuckling.