CHAPTER 8

He held me that night. For hours.

Wrapped in his arms, I felt... quiet. Like the world had finally stopped spinning long enough for me to rest. I cried so much, my soul ached more than my body. He didn't say much. Just held me close until the shaking stopped. Until I finally fell asleep on his chest.

When I woke up, sunlight barely poured through the curtain. I was in bed, alone. Still warm.

I wandered out, barefoot and quiet.

There he was.

At his desk in the study, slouched forward, fast asleep. The way he always looked when he spent

all night thinking too hard, caring too much.

And in the stillness, I just stared at him.

Admired him.

His jawline, soft under the early light. His eyelashes long, curled like a boy's. That little mole under his left eye. The curve of his nose, the way it scrunched slightly when he was deep in

thought.

And his lips.

His lips.

God, his lips.

We'd never kissed. How could that be? I loved him. Madly. Obsessively. Entirely. He was mine

my salvation. My Fuite. My escape.

And I'd never kissed him.

So, I leaned in. Quiet. Shaking. Holding my breath. And I kissed him.

Soft. Just once.

But the world shattered.

His eyes blinked open. And something shifted.

Not warmth. Not love.

Disgust.

He recoiled - subtle, but brutal.

"What are you doing?" he whispered, wiping his lips.

I froze, my heart punching my ribs.

"I-I thought... We never kissed before, and I just-"

"No," he said, cutting through me like a blade. "Why would you do that?"

My stomach twisted. My fingers went numb.

"You're like... a sister to me."

He stood. Backed away.

Sister.

That word crashed through my skull like a thunderclap. Sister. Sister. Sister.

And then he left. Just like that. Gone.

And I stood there, trembling.

I had never felt so filthy. So empty. So unloved.

My hands were on my chest like I could hold my heart together. But it was already gone.

Because didn't love me. Because I mistook safety for affection. Because I mistook kindness for belonging. Because I kissed the only person who ever made me feel like I mattered - and he

looked at me like I was wrong.

I went upstairs. The house silent. Too silent.

I sat in the bathtub.

My heart roared in my ears like thunder.

I picked up the knife. My hand didn't even shake.

If I was a sister to him, then I didn't belong here.

I didn't belong anywhere.

And maybe... maybe I'd always known that.

The blade kissed my wrist in a way he never would.

It was soft. Gentle. And then it wasn't.

Warmth spilled out. The kind that finally quiets everything.

He truly was my escape.

My Fuite

And now, I was finally free.