The Almost Confession

The cultural festival came with too much noise.

Streamers tangled from windows, paper lanterns swayed on strings like forgotten prayers, and laughter spilled down hallways like sunlight you couldn't avoid. Aika liked festivals, usually. The way the school transformed for a day — like it was pretending to be somewhere else, someone else.

But this year felt different.

Maybe because he was part of it.

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She found Ren by the back courtyard, behind the first-year haunted house booth. He wasn't working a stall or laughing with classmates. Just leaning against the wall, sipping warm tea from a paper cup like he was somewhere else in his head.

She walked over. No words. Just her shadow brushing into his.

He glanced at her, soft smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.

"Didn't think you'd come," he said.

"I didn't think you'd show up either."

"Touché."

She noticed the edge of his sketchbook peeking from his coat pocket.

"You drawing the chaos?"

"I was," he said. "Until the noise got louder than the page."

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They walked. Not toward anything. Just… with each other. Past stalls of caramel-drenched apples and yakisoba. Past a makeshift stage where a girl in a bunny hoodie sang off-key. Past a row of third-years doing fake fortune-telling with tarot cards they clearly just Googled.

"Want to disappear for a bit?" he asked.

She nodded before he finished the sentence.

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The art room was empty. Dim light, faint smell of paint thinner and pencil shavings. Ren moved to the window, pushed it open just a crack.

Wind slid in like a sigh.

"You okay?" he asked, not looking at her.

Aika leaned against a table. "Yeah. Just… overstimulated."

"Me too."

He pulled the sketchbook out of his coat. Held it in both hands. Looked at it like it weighed more than it should.

"I drew something," he said.

Aika tilted her head. "For me?"

He nodded. Flipped to the page. Handed it over.

It was a drawing of her. Not perfectly realistic, not flawless — but soft. Honest. Her hair tucked behind her ear. Her hands holding a flower she didn't recognize. Her eyes half-closed, like she was listening to something far away.

"Is that… how you see me?" she asked, breath thinner than she meant it to be.

"It's how I feel you," he corrected quietly.

She stared at the sketch. Something pressed in her chest — tight, hot, and tender all at once.

"Aika," he said, and her name sounded different this time.

She looked up.

"I…" he started, voice barely a thread, "I think I—"

She cut him off. Not with words. Not even on purpose.

Just a step back. A flinch.

Just enough to break the moment.

Ren stopped.

Froze.

Like the thing between them had shattered without sound.

She didn't know why she did it. Why her body moved like it was scared of the thing she wanted most. Maybe it was habit. Maybe it was fear. Maybe it was the part of her that still hadn't opened that letter.

"I'm sorry," she whispered.

He shook his head, looked away. "It's okay. I wasn't—I mean, it's stupid anyway."

"No, it's not."

But the moment was already gone.

And he knew it.

She handed the sketchbook back carefully, like it might crumble.

"I should… probably go help my class. The café's short on people."

Ren didn't stop her.

He just nodded.

And when she left, the door clicked shut behind her like a secret someone chose not to keep.

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That night, Aika sat in her room with her phone off, the festival glow still clinging to her skin like dust. She didn't open her journal.

She just looked at the sketch he drew.

And whispered to the ceiling:

> "Why am I always scared of the things that feel safe?"