what sin?

I have been alone for more than 7 years, when kairo began drifting away from me, I was alone, I had no one to tell anything and that's me again, in college, I was in my room alone, trapped in thought of what have been going on, it was suffocating, I don't have anyone to Confirm my fear or tell me it's all in my head, to tell me it was OK to have such deep scary thoughts or that I was overreacting, I wanted someone to ask me what was wrong, but nobody, Nova walked in and looked at me.

"Don't let Zayden fool you, I dated him since high-school and 1 thing he stood or was revenge, to end the family that took his family, he bottled up so much...

"I didn't...

"Trust me, I talked to him about it but when he have his mind set, his mind is set, you should probably run, far away and don't look back" she advised and I shook my head.

"I lost my brother...

"Don't say I didn't warn you" she cut me off again before leaving, I started sobbing at how trapped I felt, it's not like anyone would safe me, my heart hurts at how everything was going and decided to call my parents, none of them answered, I wore my shoe and step out but right outside was Zayden, stepping out of his car, I panicked and ran away, headed for the rooftop,like am answer or saviour was waiting, but I was yanked back and I screamed.

"Why are you doing this" I cried trying to get out of his grip.

"Calm down or you will fall down the stairs" he hissed.

"Stop!" I cried, he's acting like he cred again.

"Aria?" His voice calmed.

"Calm down and I will let go" he whispered, his voice soothing, I did, I stopped trying to move away from him.

"Look at me" he said and I shook my head.

"Please" he pleaded, I couldn't believe how soft his voice went, I looked up, he was searching, kept searching.

"Why did you run away just now?" He asked and I looked away, he reached for my face and I flinched.

"So you think I will hurt you?" He asked and I stepped back.

"If you run again I will follow you" he warned.

"Do you think I will hurt you?" He asked again and I reluctantly nod.

"Why?" He asked sounding hurt of some sort, it could be my ears.

"My brother..." I watched his reaction but got nothing.

"Kairo?" He asked and I nod.

"You think I want to take revenge on you?" He asked and I blinked at his soft tone, I got even more confused.

"Nova..." His jaw clenching got me taking small steps back.

"Don't listen to Nova, I warned you about this, no?" He questioned and I almost pout as he asked like I was a kid.

"Do I have a reason to hurt you?"he asked and I swallowed.

"You don't have a reason to be this nice" I whispered and he relaxed, moving back, he ran his hand through his dark hair.

"What if I say I do?" He asked.

"A reason to be nice, to care?" He asked tilting his head to the side.

"You don't " my voice cracked.

"He killed...

"I don't remember " he cut me off.

"I lost memories of that fire" he added,I searched his eyes, to see anything, any hint to know if he's lying or not but got nothing.

"I have a sin to repent for" he said his eyes searching mine as mine went to the tattoo running down the side of his neck, just below his left ear, his hand found his neck.

"Yes, I shouldn't have survived" he whispered and my face dropped, survivors guilt?.

"Doesn't make you a sinner, you're not the sinner you try to be" I whispered and the corner of his lips lifted up in a smile and I kept staring at his lips in awe, his smile would be beautiful, I felt his hand before I saw it, his gentle touch taking hair out of my face.

"Don't say things you don't know" he whispered before pulling away and stepping back.

"And don't run away from me, I won't hurt you" he added and I nod, he turned around and left me there in shock, I was reassured but still confused, because he have no reason to be nice to me, even if he lost his memories of the accident.

That encounter replays in my head all through the day.

Zayden doesn't lurk around anymore, he enters the cafe and just sits down, and if there's anything I noticed about him is that he zone's out a lot, lost in thought, he looks tired and sad, alone like me.

We smiled at each other, I can't comprehend if he hates me and doesn't show it, if his memory is really gone which is hard to believe because he knows me, which is another question,I wondered if he just wants to move on, I want to, not relate him to the fire but I can't, not in the painful way kairo left me, without a word or a goodbye.