10 years ago
I'm just a kid who had just lost my parents due to a car accident. . . Thanks to that fucking hero who leave us to die. And now, currently sit on the park while watching other kids having fun with their parents with envy
"Frost diamond had just help orphans from the burning orphanage house! "
"Thanks to him, our lives is safe. . .! "
"Fucking fake hero. . .! " I hiss to myself while remembering the news just right after I wake up from my three days coma
"I hate him. . . Hate him for just wanting fame. . . Hate him for only do good deeds in camera. . . I wish he's dead. . . Die while suffer, you scum. . .! "
And from that moment, some kind of fire ignite inside myself.
Not kind of fire from warmth.
Not kind of fire from envy to everyone happiness.
Fire of wanting those kind of heroes DEAD.
"I hate heroes. . . "
I said solemnly before looked up at the sky as if the stars itself mock me. . .
. . . Or pity me, it just the same at this point
"I hate constellations for this. . . "
I looked straight to kids with their family, enjoying their day, doing random things at this park
Something that I also could had experienced as well
". . . I envy those kids. . . " I said to myself and buried my head between my knees
"Hey there buddy, you alone? "
That's when I look up, and see a kid just a year older than me look at me with pity but friendly eyes before sit down besides me.
". . . You look hurt"
". . . Leave me alone"
I try to dismiss him, not that I didn't appreciate the act of kindness, despite deep down in my heart, I want someone to comfort me. . .
I just really want to be alone right now.
That's when I thought, I just throw away what could possibly heal me
That I just make a sunshine kid feel disgusted at me for my cold act.
But instead of leaving and crying out loud from my cold act. He just sat down besides me and keep talking.
". . . I don't know what kind of pain you in right now, but I will be glad to help" He said softly while looked at me
". . . Help with what? It's not like you can fix it now"
"Yeah, I know that"
". . . So wh-"
"But it doesn't mean I should had just let it keep being broken right? If I can't fix it right now, I learn how to fix it, piece by piece"
I looked at him. Gazed deeply at him. Because there's something different about him.
Something that makes him and other kids I encountered wasn't the same
Something that my relatives, and even my therapist didn't had for me.
Understanding
From the way he talks, and how his eyes looked at me, it's like we being friend for ages.
But. . . Why?
Why would he want to fix something that is broken when he can find a good one?
". . . What benefit you will get to try fix me anyway? "
My question linger for few seconds long. I'm hoping he replied with some favor, maybe loyalty, or be his crime partner. . . I don't know
But I know that nothing is free. That's the harsh reality I learn since little
But instead he chuckles and reply softly to me. With his own sassy joke
"What do you mean by 'benefit', you dumbass? What kind of friend do that? "
. . .
Friend?
". . . Friend? I-I'm sorry, but we doesn't even know-"
"Does friend need to know each other in order to become friend? I may look naive but it doesn't mean I'm dumb. I understand you, so that makes you my friend. "
I just looked at him long, dumbfounded. Is that really what it should took in order to became friend?
I don't know him. Hell, it wasn't even full 5 minutes since we talked.
But somehow, in that moment, I feel like I just got my first friend.
He then stand up and offer a hand to me. It makes me feel like the constellations have sent their savior to me
"Alright, get up buddy, me and my lil sis could use extra play buddy. . . And another judge, haha"
I stare at his hand for a moment before took his hand, with he just smile at me like we were already being best friend for 10 years
I don't know why, but I liked being his friend
Because for the first time, it makes me feel. . . Appreciated
". . . Name's Dani. You? "
"Call me Syed, buddy. Nice to finally become friend with you. "