4AM

It was 4am and I was low

The kind of ache I couldn't show

So I typed the truth with trembling hands

Hoping maybe you'd understand

That this was all I had to give

You were asleep I should've known

But I still felt so damn alone

And when you woke you screamed in caps

Like pain had rules or time or maps

You said it's me who doesn't try

You knew I break in silent ways

You knew I fought through darkest days

But still you blamed me for the fall

For not just saying it all

When saying anything is hard

You never saw what it had cost

To speak when everything felt lost

I reached for you in quiet hell

And all you said was how I fell

Like loving me was just too much