Chapter 5 Closer Than Silence

The cherry tree outside Mizu Hana had started to bloom.

Pale pink petals drifted down like quiet wishes, gathering on the shop's awning, on the windowsill, on the collar of Ren's jacket as he sat outside with his notebook.

But today, the words wouldn't come.

He'd written Aoi into nearly every poem lately — not always by name, but in sketches of grey eyes, lines about boys who spoke more in silence than sound, and metaphors that always circled back to the sea.

It scared him, how natural it felt.

How deeply Aoi had settled into his days.

They met again that Friday, by the vending machine as always. But something about Aoi felt different — quieter than usual, gaze far away even when Ren stood beside him.

Ren leaned against the rusted metal. "You okay?"

Aoi nodded, then shook his head. "I just… I don't always know how to be around people."

Ren smiled gently. "You don't have to try with me."

Aoi looked at him for a long time. "That's the problem, Ren. I think I stopped trying the moment you sat down beside me. And that scares me."

The words landed like rain on still water — ripples spreading slowly, endlessly.

Ren swallowed. "Why does it scare you?"

Aoi's voice dropped. "Because people leave."

Ren's heart ached.

He wanted to say, "I won't."

But promises were delicate things. Especially when made to someone who'd already built walls against them.

Later, at the harbor, they sat in silence again. But this time it felt heavier.

Ren fidgeted with the zipper on his sleeve. "Do you want me to stop coming around?"

Aoi turned sharply. "No. God, no. I just… don't know what to do with all of this."

"All of what?"

"You." A pause. "The way you look at me like I matter."

Ren's voice was soft. "You do."

Aoi shut his eyes. "Then don't make me hope. Don't make me want more."

Ren wanted to reach out, to take his hand, to say, I'm not going anywhere. But he didn't. Not yet. Instead, he said:

"I'm not asking for anything more than what you can give. I just want to be here. With you. That's enough."

Aoi exhaled, long and trembling. "Okay."

And just like that, the silence softened again. Not completely, but enough.

Enough for the waves to keep lapping.

Enough for petals to drift into the sea.

Enough for Aoi to finally lean his shoulder against Ren's — just briefly, but like it meant everything.

And for Ren, it did.