Jenn
Our days and nights are filled with one another. From hiking to the interior of the island and swimming in the fresh water of a waterfall to lying on the beach, we enjoy paradise. Throughout it all, we play with Paul’s fantasies. One by one, he reminds me how much better this kind of relationship can be with someone you trust completely.
It’s finally after six-plus days on the island that I summon the courage to open up to my husband, not sexually—I’ve never been more open. I want to open up emotionally and share my past. I don’t know why I’m frightened, but I am. With all his talk about honesty, I’m afraid that he won’t understand why I didn’t tell him any of it before. During the entire day, I think about our pending conversation, how to break it to him that what he considers his dark secret isn’t new to me.
I settle on after dinner.
In the late afternoon everything changes.