Beneath His Eyes

It rained that night. Cold, quiet, and unrelenting.

‎I stood at the balcony of my chambers, watching droplets slide down the marble, listening to the hush of the palace in slumber. And yet, I couldn't sleep. Not with him so close again.

‎Khalid Caelum.

‎He haunted my thoughts more than the nightmares of my own death. He walked these halls like a ghost from another lifemy life. And yet no one around me knew the truth. Not the servants, not the nobles.

‎Not even him.

‎At least… that's what I kept telling myself.

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‎A knock on the door.

‎I didn't move.

‎Another knock firmer.

‎"Come in," I said at last.

‎The door opened. I didn't need to turn around to know who it was. His presence was unmistakable solid, composed, and far too familiar.

‎"You're awake," Khalid said behind me.

‎"You noticed," I replied dryly.

‎He didn't respond right away. I could hear the quiet rustle of his cloak as he stepped forward, but he didn't come too close.

‎"I couldn't sleep either," he said finally. "The palace feels… different tonight."

‎"So do I," I murmured.

‎He paused. "Do you mean… since your illness?"

‎I turned to face him slowly.

‎He looked the same as he always had sharp features, dark eyes, expression carefully unreadable. But his gaze lingered on me longer than it should. Searching. Almost gentle.

‎I hated that it still made my chest tighten.

‎"You're watching me too closely," I said.

‎"And you're speaking like a man who's forgotten who he's supposed to be," he answered softly.

‎The words cut through the room like a blade. For a heartbeat, neither of us breathed.

‎Then I laughed not bitterly, but hollow. "What are you implying, Duke?"

‎He stepped forward, slowly. "Nothing. Yet."

‎My fingers curled around the edge of the balcony railing. "Then leave."

‎"I would," he said, voice lower now, "if I believed for even a moment that you didn't want me to stay."

‎I turned away, biting the inside of my cheek.

‎Why did he speak like that? Why did it sound like… he remembered?

‎"I don't know who you think I am," I whispered.

‎He didn't touch me. But I could feel the heat of him behind me, like fire behind fragile glass.

‎"Maybe I don't," he said. "Or maybe I do."

‎His voice dropped.

‎"Sometimes, I dream of someone with your voice. Your eyes. But he didn't wear a crown. He wore armor… and always stood at my side."

‎I froze.

‎The silence between us turned dangerous.

‎Then he bowed, as if nothing had been said, and turned to leave.

‎But before he crossed the threshold, he spoke one last time.

‎"I hope you remember what side you're truly on… before it's too late."

‎When the door closed, I stood there trembling.

‎Because in that moment, I wasn't sure who I hated more

‎The man who killed me…

‎or

‎The man who might still love me.

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