how to ask?

Could Lyn be somewhat linked to my 'dementia'?

This question keep appearing in Devon's mind, clinging onto him as though threatening him 'If you don't start investigating, I won't stop disturbing you'. As a result, this affected Devon's sleep and concentration level negatively.

Hmm..as far as Devon could remember, he did not even know of her existence until they sat together. They only knew each other for a few weeks, how could it be possible for them to become so close?

Impossible!

But as Devon recalled the unusual phenomenons after waking up from a splitting headache and how he felt that he lost some parts of his memory, he wasn't so sure if it could be impossible..

Let's see..

2 bowls of rice, dishes more than enough for a person, yet just nice if two people dine together..

A crumpled carpet..

A messed up room and bed..

"I'm a crazy lunatic that is in love with Devon!"

Judging from his lifestyle that he remembered, he would never cook more or less than what was required for he is against food wastage. Hence, if there are 2 bowls of rice and dishes just enough for 2 people, Devon was sure that someone ate with him before his headache, which is probably what caused his memory loss. The usually straight carpet became crumpled like trash.. this was definitely not done by him, for being tidy is part of his character. The likeliness of causing the carpet to be crumpled is either by the person whom he ate with, another person or Ken, although it's quite impossible. The reason? There's no proof but Devon had Ken for years and he had develop a sense of understanding and trust towards Ken. Based on his understanding of Ken, Ken does not like the carpet texture kind of ground hence he will always avoid the carpet. As for a messed up room and bed, it is either by him, by the person that he ate with or a thief. But both seems unlikely. Devon is always systematic and organised so he never ever had a problem of losing his stuffs and hence he's sure that he will never flip his room and/or bed upside down. However, it also sounds unlikely for a stranger or guest to do so. To gain access to his room, the person had to be someone Devon trusted 100% yet Devon did not have any close friends be it in or out of school hence how could they even cause such a mess? However, it can't possibly be a thief or robbery as his private property is under tight security surveillance. Moreover, he'd checked the whole house but nothing seemed to be stolen.

"I'm a crazy lunatic that is in love with Devon!"

This..why does this sounds oddly familiar only when the sentence comes out from Lyn's mouth? There are so many questions, yet when Devon try to find the answer to a question, another question pops out. Seems like the only way to get an answer was to start with Lyn..

..but how to ask her?

...

The next day, 27/03/18 Wednesday..

As Devon was wondering how to ask Lyn in a way that won't be weird, Lyn was thinking about how to maintain a distant relationship with him so that they won't be closer even if they have chances to interact with each other. She feared that history might repeat itself and instead of playing with fire. she'd rather just watch him from a distance. Just seeing him safe and well will do! Lyn didn't dare hope for something more, for the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment. Anyway as the saying goes, knowing how to be contented is to be blissful. She was greedy and gave up on her plan to change seat. In the end, they grown too close. To kiss him, she paid the price of being forgotten by him, yet she had to remember it all, which is very painful.

The greatest pain is not something that you know you could never have and never have it.

It is the moment where you are so close to getting it, or even if you managed to get it, you lose it instantly as soon as you get it.

Meanwhile, in Devon's mind..

Dammit how do I ask?

'Uhh hey Lyn! How are you? Uhh do you know anything special about the line [I'm a crazy lunatic that is in love with Devon]?'

Eh this sounds so fake, like the typical fake peeps that only acknowledge your presence when they need your help. Yikes I hate this kind of people! If someone acts like this to me, I'd not help! No, this won't do..

'Do you believe if I told you that I have memory loss? It's strange that I still remember who is who, yet, I feel like I lost an important person or memory..Uhh do you know why does the line [I'm a crazy lunatic that is in love with Devon]? feels so familiar to me?'

No no no... this is too draggy I'd already had fallen asleep if someone just beat around the bush and talk about their old grandmother story*

'The line [I'm a crazy lunatic that is in love with Devon]. Does it sounds familiar?'

...Why does this sounds like a pickup line?