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After a whole sleepless night, Devon went to school without his usual self but no one knows that something was wrong with him since to everyone, whether he's happy, sad or angry, he looks practically the same, his tone of words cold and nonchalant. Ever since he recovered from his headache, he feels that he had suffered a memory loss, yet he is still able to remember what happened in school every day, the name of his teachers, his phone number etc.

However, his instincts told him that what he had forgotten was something very important to him, and that drove Devon crazy since he felt that life was the same as usual, no different from before he had a headache. Yet, his instincts were never wrong. The only thing that ever goes wrong is his monologue with 'dear lord', he realised.

This was no surprise as one wouldn't feel the pain of losing if one don't know that he/she lost something.

One wouldn't know that something is precious until experiencing losing it.

..

During Literature, Devon had to do a 'Chemistry Test' with every female to see who is more fitting to act as the protagonist. Actually, Devon felt that there was no need for this since he is not close to anyone so no matter who acted alongside him, the results will be the same, or so he thought..

Since he only had to stare at the female protagonist during the 'chemistry test', his body was physically with the female protagonist, yet his mind was elsewhere. As such, he may looked intimidating, making people think that he's seriously immersed in his role when he was actually thinking about what changed after his headache, what weird things happened..

Surely he did not have dementia at such young age..right? But then again, it is not impossible to have dementia at such age although he was very young but technology is advancing everyday, the expectations of everyone is also higher, which is more stressed. If he knew of people that already had white hair since the age of 15, having dementia at 17 years old seem likely too. As he thought about this possibility, his brows crossed, making him seem like an angry bird, scaring away the poor unlucky girl that was auditioning at that time..

"I'm a crazy lunatic -"

she froze in fright when she saw how Devon transformed into a demon, her face turning whiter than a sheet of paper as she struggled to continue

" that..that..that is in..love with.. De-Devon.." After barely completing her audition, she didn't even wait for Mr Zin's comments before disappearing in a flash.

Meanwhile, the Mr Zin that is lagging by 3 secs..

"You really need to improve on the way you talk! How could you stutter and stammer and be afraid?! You-" After lecturing for a while did he then realised that he was actually talking to himself like a fool...

Trying to hide the embarrassment, he cleared his throat before signalling the next candidate to prepare.

...

After many auditions, none of the candidates got praised. Instead, they received quite a number of feedbacks on what they shouldn't do and comments that made them feel worse than they already are.

Seeing that, Devon can't help but feel that he's guilty of what happened. If he's more friendly, maybe they would perform better. However, a leopard cannot change its spots just like how he couldn't change his personality. As such, he thought of a solution that will benefit everyone.

"ready?"

Lyn nodded without hesitation.

"Okay three.."

"two.."

"one.."

"Acti-"

"Wait!" Just before the next candidate could start, Devon interrupted, causing everyone to stop and stare at him in bewilderment.

"I think..there's no point trying. Clearly my presence makes everyone uncomfortable, even me. So, I volunteer to quit my role.. " Devon said without any emotions, making people feel uncomfortable as they guessed if he is truly uncomfortable acting or that he feels that he is making everyone uncomfortable.

Upon hearing this, instead of feeling relieved, everyone had a 'What?! Are you serious?' face or a disappointed expression.

Huh? It seems like they don't want me to quit? ..But why? Devon really don't understand.

"Devon please don't quit! It's not your fault! Anyway, only one last candidate is left. If you really wanna quit..at least wait till everyone has auditioned..please?" a girl pleaded.

"yeah!" many others chimed in.

Seeing their adamant reactions, Devon had no choice but agree to their request.

"We're starting in 3 seconds.." Mr Zin informed Lyn after calming down from the sudden announcement from Devon.

three..

Lyn's wore a calm expression.

two..

The calm expression instantly changed to a blindly in love, 'infatuated with you' look

one..

Devon could feel that look directed at him.

Their eyes met. Keeping the 'infatuated with you' look, Lyn shouted "I'm a crazy lunatic that's in love with Devon!"

"Cut! Lyn, well done!" Mr Zin exclaimed, pleasantly surprised.

Since Lyn was the only person that have gotten a praise from auditioning this role, many people gossiped about what just happened. While everyone was lively, there was a Devon, emotionless as ever..

why did the way she shout "I'm a crazy lunatic that's in love with Devon!" sounds so familiar, like someone have also said this to me before?

Strange.

Although all the girls said the same line, there was something about the way Lyn said it which make him feel a sense of familiarity among the cold and distant feeling.

Could she be somewhat linked to my 'dementia'?