RedCeiling

[Completed]:
Volume 1: Loss of a firm hold.

[Upcoming]:
Volume 2: Intertwined fingers.

[Excerpt]:
"I think I love you," I told him. The feeling of wanting to be with him for the rest of the time started the day he first visited me at the orphanage.

"You do, and I love you too." Then he walked nearer, "Promise me it'll be the two of us," he asked.

"Promise." 

But was that really possible? "I'm technically your sister," I said. We were old enough to understand certain things.

"Adopted." He stressed. "What I asked them was I wanted to you be with me forever. There will be no one to point on that," he said. Were things really that simple? But listening him say them was all I needed.
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I found out that I was pregnant almost a fortnight ago and which woman does not be happy? I wanted to tell him first and I did. But the reaction he gave made me doubt my entire life. First it was a surprise and then, as I waited for his response, I watched his eyes become happy. But before he smiled, a very small and indecipherable frown appeared and he hugged me tight not giving me a chance to read his face anymore. His breathing was quick and heavy. After he released me, I took in the smile on his face; only, I didn't know if I should call it a smile. All there was in his eyes was a hue of sadness.

"What's wrong?" I questioned him directly. His face changed once again. He seemed troubled.

"Nothing," he smiled and added that he was happy.

"You're not," I stated. He is not a fool to think that I would not know when something is wrong. And he would be more wrong to think that I would let this slip.
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“Look at me.” I said calmly. He shifted his head but still avoided my eyes. I walked up to him and put my eyes in his line of sight.

“Don’t you know what I mean ‘every day’?”

He took a quick step back. “Jessie, what’s wrong? Why are you like this?” What’s wrong?

An ear piercing sound rang through the room. I slapped hard across the face. Then I noticed that I started crying. Through my blurry eyes, I saw his eyes tearing up too. This was yet another unpleasant first. The first time I was forced to slap him.
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“Are you okay?” I asked him lifting my head to see his face. His chin rested on my head and I still did not have a proper look. I tried to move my head slowly in another attempt, but he held me tight, not letting me move. Was he still crying? Perhaps that was why he did not like me seeing him.

When we were kids and something troubled him, he used to find me to let it out. Crying was included sometimes. He did not hide his tears back then. Because, boys did not particularly cry in front of their girls, I questioned him how he saw this once. It was a playful teasing that I aimed at. But, he gave me a serious and truthful confession in return. Mentally I am the stronger one and he told me that crying in front of me never felt like he was lowering himself. That was his level of acceptance.

But everything he is doing now is in a stark controversy to my beliefs.

He spoke after calming himself more, “I’m not.”

[Target Audience]:
This story has 3 volumes. From the name, it is not odd that this is totally based on love. The first volume is a little tragic, the reason why it is under realistic fiction. If tragic romance upsets you, then this might as well.

**[UNEDITED]**
I didn't proof read all the parts. But I usually keep an eye to check for mistakes as I write. So hopefully there are not too many of them. Will be editing soon.

Struggle Of Love

I was going through some social media sitting in the last bench. The teacher did not seem to be bothered by the noisy class and I would surely bother liking all the hilarious anime memes and amazing fan-arts. Then, a notification floated at the top of my screen. I was surprised when the sender was shown, 'Sai'. The emoticon beside his name made me giggle; it was a nerd emoticon. He has a perfect sight and no glasses. I saved it that way when I first got my phone and never changed it. Not when he denied me nor when he confessed to me. He is a very good friend to me. Maybe, we do have the potential to be more but I didn't want it. I would love him as a nice friend.


Then I realised that it has been a really long time since that nerd messaged me. High school was so good, I reminisced. That nerd, he was so amazing back then. I soon opened the WhatsApp text and then, I was not very happy to know what he texted for.


'Nothing,' I typed and sent him. Then, a second later he was online, and then went offline leaving me on blue ticks. 'Nothing at all, really,' I sent him again. Sai leaves you on blue ticks without any acknowledgement if he doesn't not agree on something, which seemed to be the case now. He is online and the ticks are blue but nothing more.


There was nothing more I can do so I switched back to the previous app. Then, I got one more message. 'Jessy and I are worried. Please May, tell me,' it said and the new information shocked me to the core.


He and Jess? Since when do they talk to each other? I sensed that Jess was trying very hard when we met up recently, slowly turning the flow of our conversation towards James but never did I think she would talk to Sai about it. Jess does not really adjust well with Sai. But of course everything is possible when you try to understand your loved one when he is being so difficult.


Suddenly the screen rolled up and in came another text. 'You are leaving me on seen, really?' Then came another. 'Did you get caught using the phone in class?' 


Then I realised I kept him waiting for a good three minutes. He was quite brave when we are not talking in person. But in the past, he was just like this even in person. Now he has changed and wish for the old him. I decided to end the chat some way or the other.


'Yes, she got caught.' That should do. Then I went offline and decided to put my phone aside for the rest of the day.


I should see James soon and talk to him. He cannot keep going like this with everything. He should not deal with everything without Jess actually being by his side. He should trust himself and her more. Except for Sai and Ton, we're all in the same city. They were a 100 kilometres away, a two hour journey. I can meet James after college if we decide on the place because I can't do this at his home with Jess around.


I called him and he asked me go to his hospital where he works since he was busy for the day.


I don't see knowing his problem as a burden, for the rest always try to get it out. But I should persuade him and give him some moral support to share it with Jess.


That Nerd