don't do it again, okay?

It's the weekend, working as usual I guess.

I've been ignoring Matthew all week. I just can't bring myself to look at him.

John's staying with me, which is a good distraction, but both of us can't really cook so it's a disaster in the kitchen.

I've been working everyday, just anything to get me an excuse to refuse hanging out with everyone.

I looked up to see Perry's group already seated, and ofcourse with Matthew who I didn't want to see.

I froze, when he looked over but before he could make eye contact, I broke away deciding I was leaving early.

They let me since I've been working everyday, the back was locked today though so I had awkwardly pass by Matthew's group, giving Perry an apologetic look. 

Since I'm out early, maybe I'll call over Zach. Cindy is out on a date today so she's not free.

I told him and he agreed to come over which ofcourse because he's just as free as me.

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"Liam, man what's going on with you?"

"What do you mean?"

"You literally never hang out with us anymore. And you're avoiding Matthew aren't you?"

"I-im not..." I looked down.

"Even a baby can tell you are, you leave the room everytime he's like 10 feet close to you."

Just what I didn't want to talk about.

"Cant we just not talk about it-"

"No. Both of you guys are so stubborn that even if you want to you won't try to talk to each other. "

"Zach why are you being so irritating?"

"Im being irritating? I tell you what you're doing wrong and I'm being irritating?"

"I just...don't want to talk to him okay?"

"Is it because you like his best friend?" What the hell is that reasoning?

"What?"

"That's why I haven't really agreed to um go out with him. I thought you liked him."

"No I don't like Perry. At All. "

"Wait, you don't mind if I go out with him?"

"Ofcourse not."

He smiled excited but composing himself quick enough.

"Just sort it out okay?"

"Fine, I won't leave the room the next time I meet him. "

"You know that's not what I meant."

"Okay, I'll talk to him. In exchange tell me how your date goes."

I chuckled as he turned red smacking me.

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On Monday, I had a few classes with Matthew. I sat on a seat near the back in my last one, and as he entered the class I motioned for him to come over.

I watched as his eyes widened, an irritated look taking over his face, but he came over anyway.

"Uh can we talk.....?"

"You avoid me for a week and then you wanna talk?"

"Sor-"

"Shut up. We'll talk after class, don't run away."

He sat down, still not looking at me.

I sighed. I'm an idiot.

I didn't pay attention in class, thinking about what I'd say to him. I can't just say 'actually, I realized I like you'

As soon as the bell rang and the teacher walked out, he grabbed my hand pulling me out.

"We're going to my apartment?"

"No, mine. Your brother is living with you isn't he?" He actually remembered I smiled to myself, wait why am I happy about this?

"Okay but let me go, I can walk y'know."

"O-oh yeah.." he leg go off my hand slowing down a little.

I texted Zach I wouldn't be coming with him today, Saying I was gonna talk to Matthew and all. Jumping in the car, I realized.

Wait I've never been in his car before right? It smells like him....

Ew I'm being so creepy I swear to god-

"You're kinda pissed off today aren't you? Something happened?"

"Hmm?" He looked over.

"LOOK AT THE ROAD YOU'RE DRIVING JESUS CHRIST!"

"Stop shouting oh my god!"

"Eyes on the road you idiot. "

"Yeah yeah. " He looked back pissed.

Abort mission, can't talk to him right now. 

We made it to his house, No one's home again?

"Just tell me you live alone already."

"No, mom works. She'll be back by the evening. "

"Guess I stay to see her then. " I teased.

"Sure. "

Huh? Didn't think he'd agree that easily.

Walking, I didn't pay attention as I ended up in the kitchen.

"So you didn't tell me why you're so pissed off today. "

"Remember the girl I was on a date with?" I nodded, pushing down my jealousy.

"She slept with my team mate. " I wanted to say 'yikes! She's a bit-' but I didn't say it. Pity.

He walked to the kitchen.

I opened my arms inviting him.

"You can't be that strong, you can cry I won't tell anymore. "

"I never liked her so I don't care. I'm pissed because if I did my team mate would have knowingly slept with her."

"Oh." I said a little relieved.

"More importantly. "

He walked closer, as my back hit the counter.

"Tell me why you ignored me for a week."

"I didn't ignore you-"

"Don't Dodge the question Liam. " I looked up, surprised at the sudden change in tone.

"I uh j-just-"

"I knew it. It's because of that damn boyfriend isn't it?" Boyfriend?

"What?"

"He told you to stay away from me, And you seriously listened to him? Cmon Liam."

"What boyfriend?"

"Don't pretend now. "

"What the heck matthew-"

"Damnit, the one you were on a date with at the mall!"

John? I started laughing finally realising what he was going on about.

"That guy was John you moron. My step brother. Y'know the one staying with me."

I laughed even harder looking at his face turn from annoyance to dumbfounded.

"Stop laughing." He mutter as I looked up to see him flushed. Adorable.

He walked forward Caging me against the counter with his arms.

"H-hey Matthew..."

"Shut up. " He buried his face in my neck, his familiar smell relaxing me.

Can't lie, I really missed this. He really did have the best hugs in the world.

After a while of staying like that, he let go walking back.

His hand found my hair, ruffling it as always. He leant down, his forehead almost touching mine.

"Don't do that again." My face turned red because of how close he was.

"Y-yeah." I muttered pushing him back. He chuckled turning to the fridge to get something to eat.

As soon as his hand left my head, it felt cold. This is why I wanted to distance myself from him. I keep getting more used to him, and it'll end up hurting more in the end. Why did it have to be him. I could have liked literally anyone else.

I heard a loud thud as I turned to see him on the floor.

"Matthew!" I rushed to him, ready for cpr.

"Don't die omg should I call an ambulance what the hell-"

"Stop panicking." He whispered.

"I skipped lunch because of practice. Can you get me something like instant glucose. It's in the cabinet. "

I nodded making him the drink and then gently lifting his face to help him drink.

"I'll make you something-" I looked in the fridge. "or I'll heat you something. " I put the soup on the stove.

"Don't leave me on the floor. " He chuckled.

"O-oh right. " I gently held him up, pulling his arm over my shoulder and walking to the couch. Setting him down, as soon as I let him go he sat up by himself, getting up to make himself comfortable.

"You could walk? Why'd you make me help you then!"

"You'll end up burning the food. "

"Crap!" I hurried to the stove, turning off the flame, getting the chicken soup in a bowl.

I slowly brought it over and set it in front of him.

"Thanks. " He smiled getting up and slowly leaning over to blow every time he'd drink.

"This is so inconvenient. Can you-"

"I'm not helping you drink!"

"Aww" he huffed but got up completely to not spill it over himself. I saw down on the floor, looking at him drinking it and sometimes setting the spoon down to get a bite of the bread.

He looked good even when he just fainted. How do you even do that?

I sat there admiring him like some creepy girl from a romcom. I couldn't help it.

When he finished, he set the bowl down, colour finally returning to his face. He laid back down, almost already asleep.

I sat there, just looking the entire time. I finally snapped out of it, realising I should get home. I walked to him, leaning down on the couch because I wanted to touch his hair one more time.

I can't do it when he's awake so might as well-

I yelped when I felt his hand creep around my waist pulling me down with him and snuggling me like some teddy bear.

"I need to go home Matthew, cmon let me go!"

"Stop talking. "

He wrapped his hands around my waist, burying his face in my hair. He sure likes to do that huh?

I gave up, too comfortable to even try to leave, as I let myself fall asleep too, knowing this is probably the only time it can happen, so might as well.