4. You are My Love
Now I am getting inside my office and I watched your eyes which is waiting to arrest me. I am totally confused about you Ishaani, my heart loves you and needs you, still I can't express these things and accept my feelings. I don't know how could I stop my eyes which stared you now. Why the hell this heart loves you? I don't know..... but today you look gorgeous.
I am totally stunning when I see you wear saree today. That too this Skyblue desinger saree which is my favorite colour and comb your hair as plait style that too my favorite and that little cute bindi on your forehead. You looks perfect Ishaani , just perfect who borns for me, only for me....
Now I forgot everything dr, everything that I am in office and I need to move for one important meeting. I can't stop me to look you, I can't took my eyes which mesmerizing everything. I am watching and filling every movement of yours in my heart.
I don't know what I likes in you but I need you..I need you as my friend, I need you as my guide,my philosopher, my dream girl,my living reason, I need you as my lover, I need you as my wife. The thought "of you being my wife" bring to me to reality.
Suddenly I remember something and watched you from head to toe, then I see your Vermilion mark on your forehead, which tells me you are not belongs to me. I also watched that yellow rope (Mangalyam) which deliberately sits around your neck, and laughs at me, you are someone's wife. And finally I see your toe ring, which says totally I could not take you. I can't say you Ishaani how my heart feel now... The love which gives me uncontrollable happiness from one hand, at the other hand it gives me unbearable pain.
You know why, once I heard you when you talking with your friend, about your healthy life. There I understand how much you loves your husband, even today you can't leave his thoughts, when your friend my team mate Reeta asked you.....
Reeta: Why you wear these things (she pointed your yellow rope, vermilion mark and your toe ring) now you are not in your country so you can be yourself.....
You : You simply smiled and say " yes you are right, now I'm not in my country" but I don't want to change myself Reeta.
Reeta: But why Ishu? these things makes little awkward for you know...
when she says this, how you reacted know; I can't forget it today too, you smiled at her, the smile which gives life to any lifeless things too.
You : Awkward who says that Reetu, I love to wear this, if I changed these things know, I can't be myself. This is me dr, moreover
I love my country and it's tradition and I love my husband a lot and lot.
When I hear those words I'm dying inside Ishaani, but I can't express that. I know as a married woman you love your husband. But what could I do about my feelings, I know you loves me too. But how could I accept you, you can't leave your husband for anyone.And I know that, now also you keeps fast for your husband's well being and life . But I don't understand one thing if you loves your husband like anything, how could I see and sense feelings in your eyes for me.
When I am in this deep thought my phone rang..
That is my mom I answered her call in a dejected tone " Hi mom, how are you? How is your valentine going on?"
My mom: I'm fine dr.... how are you? why your voice is too low? Are you sleep well?
Me: Yes mom.. I'm okay
My mom: No, your voice is very low, I know you are not good.
Me: I'm good ma
My mom: Don't lie to me my boy.May you stay away from me but I'm your mom, I know about you... tell me what happen?
Me:Nothing mom... just a slight headache .
My mom:What are you saying Ishaan? Did you take tablets regularly if you had severe headache means go to hospital and check now. Otherwise I make my way to you.
Me:Mom, mom just relax I'm perfectly okay, I know after I had accident you get worried about me but believe me mom I'm perfectly okay.....
My mom: Don't hide anything from me dr, go to hospital and send reports to me. Otherwise I will reach you.
(This is my mom, too caring if she get flu means also she didn't go to hospital but for me it is even a simple cough she took me under control.)
Me: Ok mom, I will do... I need to go now.... Happy Valentine's day mom..
My mom:Ishann please be careful my boy,don't reject your health whatever the reason maybe.... That accident was happened before 2 years but that changed lot of things my boy , so don't reject my concern and fear.
Me:Ok mom I will take care... bye
When I am talking with my mom I know you watched me only.,
(Ishaani: Today you look amazing man,
you wear white formal shirt with Black coat. You know I love your dressing manner.Now I forget everything, in this moment I need you... I just need you at any cost)
( When Ishann looks Ishika she turned away and started to act she was in work... After seeing her for few minutes, Ishann feels his heart is stuck at her, but he moved from there for his meeting. )
Actually my work is I need to convince our client who uses our products to bought. Then I need to help them to use that if they had any issues.But this time I didn't go for that work. I am going to meet one millionaire by chance, if I conveniences him to sign a deal for our company products, I will get promoted and I can go to my country and work there. In India also my company had their branch.)
I want to go to my country not because I get bored here, because I want to forgot my love slowly, I want to forgot her.
When I leaves my cabin, Ishanni calls me.
When she is coming closing towards me my heart beats fast, and I prayed lot of God that you don't di anything which kills your reputation. You came very close towards me,and patted on my shoulder very casually and said ; our Boss told you to join me, because Reeta is on leave today.
I can't control my feelings towards you even for a second But now you are coming with me, how could I control my feeling and you. I don't know, for now I curse myself to became invisible in front of her.
"Love is a enemy
When you think it give happy it give sadness
When you think it give answers it give only questions
When you think it never happens it already happens for you...."