Broken heart

The next day.

Fresh sunlight infiltrated the room through parted curtains. Gradually, the whole place was filled with brightness to the brim.

The room felt alive and refreshing but for Xu Xinya, it felt like a nightmare. "God." Xu Xinya grasped her head in her hands and cursed under her breath. "Just what in the world I did last night?"

She glanced at her side and saw a pill and a glass of water placed by the table. "It must be Yi'er." She smiled to herself and quickly took the pill. After the effect set in, she felt much better.

Sitting down, she tried to recall what sort of 'devilry' she had done last night. But her memories were all mangled. She remembered blackmailing Xiao Yi to come with her to the club last night but other than that, everything was hazy.

When Xu XInya picked up her phone, she was startled. Twenty-seven messages from Xiao Yi. After clicking on them, she burst out laughing.

She laughed so hard that she almost cried.

If Xiao Yi had witnessed how Xu Xinya laughed after knowing that she had vomited in her brother's car last night, Xiao Yi would have died from anger.

Xu Xinya quickly suppressed her laughter and types a 'Sorry' to Xiao Yi.

Later that day, someone unexpected had come to visit Xu Xinya. Aunt Bao had sent the house butler to inform Xu Xinya. Xu Xinya didn't want to see that person. So she sent the butler to convey her words to him to politely 'fuck off'. However, Jiang Fu insisted.

Xu Xinya didn't want him to cause drama. Especially not in front of her family. So she decided to go downstairs herself. Once she stepped into the drawing-room, Jiang Fu stood up instantly. His eyes were dull as he fixed his stare at her.

"Ya'er..." He whispered; his voice was so low that if not for his lips movement she couldn't tell if he even said something.

"Leave." Xu Xinya quietly ordered all the maids and servants in the room.

Once those two were left alone in the room, she glanced at his appearance with cold eyes.

Jiang Fu was someone who took the utmost care of his appearance. His clothes were always neat and up to the latest brand. His watch and any other accessory he wore could shut anyone up. He would never settle for something lesser than the best.

In their school, he was nicknamed 'Prince Charming' by girls. From a distance, he looked so gentle, amiable, and like someone who would never harm a girl. Someone who would treat you like a princess. With his simple angelic smile, he could steal the hearts of countless girls.

But right now, the same dandy man had dark circles around his eyes. His face was unshaven, his hair unkempt. And even his clothes were full of creases and appeared as if they hadn't been changed in days. His watch was missing.

'Has he appeared in front of me like this on purpose so that I would feel bad for him and forgive him easily?' Xu Xinya couldn't help being skeptical of him after he had betrayed her absolute trust in him.

When he didn't say anything for a long time, Xu Xinya took the initiative. "Speak."

"Ya'er I have been waiting-"

"Mr. Jiang, you have lost the right to call me that." Her voice was indifferent.

Jiang Fu froze.

Xu Xinya made her intentions clear by saying those words. They were over.

When Jiang Fu couldn't come up with something smooth to say for a long time, Xu Xinya said.

"If this is all I will leave."

She had just turned when his voice reached out.

"Xu Xinya please." He walked forward. But before he could touch her, Xu Xinya stepped back. Her eyes were still clouded in indifference.

Jiang Fu was at a loss for what to do. He had expected her to scream at him and curse him. This was how Xu Xinya had behaved in the past whenever he had done something over the boards. But this time, she was so different, so calm and cold towards him.

He didn't know how to pursue such Xu Xinya.

"What do you want now?" Xu Xinya's voice was clear.

She had also expected she would scream at that man once she saw him next time. But for some reason, deep down when he was in front of her, she felt neither anger nor sadness; she felt nothing. Looking at him, she felt like she was addressed to a stranger.

It was only the terrible hangover that made her grow impatient and urged her to say. "Jiang Fu, you have done what you had to do. What are you here for now?"

Jiang Fu clenched his fists. "Xu Xinya, I know that I messed up." He looked down and avoided her cold stare. That night, he was drunk. That was not an excuse and he wasn't trying to shift the blame to others. Through clenched teeth, she whispered. "But is there... is there no chance for forgiveness?"

Xu Xinya laughed lightly. "Forgive you? You don't need to ask for forgiveness from me. To be honest I'm not even angry at you. I am angry at myself. How stupid of me to put my absolute trust on someone I thought I knew but I clearly didn't."

Jiang Fu flinched.

"For your sake, I had even gone against my family wishes..." Xu Xinya's eyes softened a bit with sadness.

"Xu Xinya-"

"Let's just forget about that Jiang Fu. Think about it in this way. What if it was me? What if it was me who had betrayed your trust? What if you have caught me f**king a man? Would you have forgiven me just like that?" Saying these words, her voice wasn't loud at all. It was neutral and calm.

"Don't say that." Jiang Fu's voice rose. His eyes sharpened as he stared at her.

"So it's ok as long as it's you. But If it's me, then I can't even think about it?" Xu XInya shook her head. At that time, she felt a twinge of sadness within her. Something in her was lost forever. She would never be able to fully trust anyone again. She took a deep breath.

"There are final boundaries in everything. And you broke them." Xu Xinya glanced at him. "Goodbye, Jiang Fu."

However, Jiang Fu didn't let her leave.

"Ya'er you are angry? Then beat me up. Take your anger out on me. But please don't do this to me. You know what you mean to me. You know how important you are to me. I can't live without you; I just can't! Xu Xinya, I-I love-"

"Don't give me that shit!" Xu Xinya's voice rose. Her cold eyes sharpened with fury in an instant. His words had awakened something in her again. Something she would rather have remained dead.

She felt a fear rise within her. A fear that she might just end up forgiving Jiang Fu.

After all, he was the one she loved wholeheartedly since the beginning, and feelings don't die overnight.

A big part of her heart still wanted her to feel his warmth, to make herself fall in his arms and cry out all her pains.

'No, I won't bow to him. If I do it now, he will keep breaching my boundaries and soon he will get used to it.'

"Just leave me alone, Jiang Fu. We are over." Her voice was crisp.

"Ya'er" He grew bolder and called her Ya'er despite her denying him. Summoning everything he had within him, he asked in a quiet voice. "Have I not...a slightest chance?"

Xu Xinya fell silent. She repeated the same question to herself.

'Can I live without him? Can I forget him completely? Ever since I was young, thinking about the future I had dreamed of nothing but a blissful marital life with Jiang Fu. If it is not what the future holds for me then what am I supposed to do?'

Once her silence dominated, Jiang Fu's expressions eased slightly.

"Ya'er, I was accepted into the university. Today's my flight. I am leaving. But no matter what happens, the place you hold in my heart can't be taken by any other woman. Just remember, you are the only one for me."

Xu Xinya looked up at him. Unsure of what to say, her mouth opened and closed.

"I will come back to you." He said with a lowered tone and left.

In the following days, while Xu Xinya was still busy trying to settle her feelings, something even more terrifying awaited her.