Run

Why?

Why did he have to die? I just came to exist and the person who I was basically raised by had to die.

While running, tears flow from my eyes and I don't know why. Why do I feel so bad. Up until now I only have felt joy. To think that feelings like this exist is just disgusting.

Where am I even running?

What's the point in running? I mean the only good thing I had is gone now. Wouldn't it be better to die? No, he told me to run so I'm going to do that.

Running feels weird to me. I haven't done it before yet it feels so natural. But why does it hurt to do?

I can't run forever, it just feels too impossible to do that. I slow down. I can't keep it up. I'm useless... I can't even do what he asked me to. I sit on the ground with my back to a house. I feel terrible all around.

"Hey you their, whats got you running so late"

I don't know where I am and I'm all alone

"What do you mean alone"

I have no family

"Ohh honey, how's about you spend the night here"

Okay.

I have no reason to refuse. I feel better suddenly yet It's not enough to make me feel okay. My life so far has been horrible. I hope the lady taking my in doesn't die.

"You look exhausted and your covered in sweat! I'm gonna go get a bath ready for you, okay."

Okay

"How about you sit down for now while I get that ready for you"

I don't know how to feel right now. I feel responsible somehow for his death. Like, had I not came out of nowhere then he'd have no reason to stay outside and he'd never have ran into that thing.

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even know who I am other than what my name is now. I guess all I can do is wait for my bath.

"The baths ready"

As she says this I get up and go to where I heard her voice.

She tells me what to do when I get out. She leaves and closes the door behind her.

I'm now alone in the bathroom.

I start to take off my clothes.

Suddenly I start thinking. If I suddenly came to exist then why would I be wearing clothes? And why such peculiar ones at that? I mean these clothes are nothing like what he was wearing or what the lady is wearing or even what the occasional person on the street was wearing.

I mean it doesn't really matter now but it feels weird. The clothes I originally had where just knee high socks, short shorts, and a crop top. They aren't suited for this weather at all. If Addison hadn't given me a coat and long pants then I would have froze to death. It's odd but I guess it can't be helped. I take off my clothes and put them on the bathroom counter next to the clothes I'm supposed to put on after. I stand in front of the mirror with only my underwear on. My body is slim yet with a surprising amount of curves. I take this moment to analyze my body. My hair is a dark, near solid black color. My breasts are large in comparison to my skinny figure yet not too big. My body is slightly muscular yet still fairly fatty in some areas. My eyes are large in comparison to Addisons. I feel different from the people I've met so far yet I don't know why. I turn from the mirror and focus my attention on taking a bath. I go in slowly as I lower my naked body into the tub. The water is warm and feels good on my cold flesh. Even though it's not that comfortable I still find myself feeling sleepy

Despite all that happened today I feel calmed.

Though it may sound weird, I wish I could share this experience with somebody.