HER ATTENTION

The next day I went in class a little early, the nerdy girls in our class all came first and sat in the front rows, and people like me were back benchers. But that didn't mean I wasn't active in class. So I sat in the row Light usually sat in, I was sitting on one seat and had my bag on the one next to mine, In Light's seat. No one I noticed dared to sit there because they were kind of scared of me, I wasn't rude or a bitch but I just wasn't interested in conversations with random people so I sat there with my usual resting bitch face . And just when the teacher came in Light followed in and saw that I had my bag in her seat, I was expecting her to ask me to move it because it was her seat she always sat there, but instead she just went to the back without even a second glance to me. I was like what! WHAT! I did all this work just to be ignored completely, the plan was that she'd come and ask me to remove my bag from there and let her SIT NEXT TO ME, but she just went all the way to the back. I suddenly had an urge to cry. It hurts for a stupid fucking royal like me to do something out of my routine just to sit next to someone. I never, Never did this for someone and it was clearly obvious that I wanted to sit next to her. Why would she do that? Did she not like me or something ? If not why did she smile at me in the court yesterday? Oh maybe cuz I was cheering like an excited monkey for her. Who even was she how dare she do that to me. The whole lecture went by and I didn't even notice I was so shocked by what happened. The bell rang, I stormed out of the class, well like I usually do, but I didn't take the rest of the lectures that day, I felt so insulted I still couldn't believe I got rejected like that. I went to the canteen and bought a donut, I wanted to spend some alone time but the girls around me when they saw I wasn't with my group started sticking and coming to me for things like Umm Hi could you tell me the time? What period just started? All of them too scared to start a normal conversation. Well because I ignored all their questions anyway, ok maybe I was a bitch. I went to the block A's roof, not much people went there it was a quiet peaceful place. Alone with my thoughts, I started thinking now that I cooled down maybe she was afraid of me too, like the other girls, maybe she's intimidated by me and didn't have the courage to talk to me, so she went all the way to the back, but no that was obviously a hint, that she wasn't interested in me. But could be the former too. Ughh I was stressed again. I sat there for like 40 minutes and finally went down to my friend talia's class room the class had just ended and students were leaving and I saw Talia. We then walked and gathered the rest of our group and went to the basketball court,our favourite place, well mine the most now.

In the fifth period, Light and a bunch of her friends came to the basketball court and sat down just a little far, we were this close that we could here each other talk. Well I'm always very bothered by this when someone just sits so close to your group it feels like they're invading our space. But I wasn't bothered by her, it felt like she came here on purpose, and again she caught me staring, and she stared back. I could do it all day but I felt kinda shy all of a sudden and dropped my gaze. And she went back to talking to her friends. My friends all of them I noticed were staring at me the whole time and they were like bitch what was all that about. I couldn't tell them I felt attracted to her because they would think I'm gay and I'm not so I just said You know how eyes get stuck sometimes and tried to change the topic.

So this thing between us started we would stare at each other whenever we passed each other through hallways or in class, she turned around to take a book out of her bag and looked directly at me , I looked back. This felt so good I felt like atleast now I'm someone she had a connection with, you know she could call me the girl who I have a staring contest with did that and stuff. Atleast I was in her attention.