Four Electric Chairs

Many many times he spin me on my Memories, I don't know how much years been passed. 3 years? 5 years? I don't remember and I don't care anymore.

Everything just same. The Monster, he keep coming every time, he keep torture me. Every day, every time, every minute, every second,  it's same. He torture me, and nobody help me, nobody, they just watch, and just said, "Oh what a poor boy." And they do nothing.

Just go away if you don't want to do something. Don't look me like I need your sympathy, I don't need your annoying word. "Oh what a poor boy." Just dead please.

Now this time he's gonna come, he's gonna come with that whip, he going to whipping me now, just like the old time.

"Carl! Come here now! Dad is very angry now ...." I can hear the voice just like a nightmare. Now he opened the same door, the only one door in my room, the door that separate between suffer and fear.

Now for the 17890 ...-- times he pulls me. And he whipping me. Just like old time, and I, I ... only can scream, scream ... I hate my self, even my mind forced me to fight, but I can't ...

I'm too scare ....

I'm too weak ....

I hate myself.

Is it there is no one else want to help me?

No one?

I hope not all of people just 'watch' all these madness. Or should I say 'read'.

Please anyone, don't just watch. Please if you want to help me, just help the other kid that you find in the garbage, in a school, in your eyes. Just help everyone, cause that kid is probably me.

I was crying while he whipping me.

And he said, "Why are you crying?"

What ...?

Why Am I crying?

Because ....

Yeah? Why am I crying?

I laughed madly."Gha ha ha ha ha ha ha!"

Then he asked, "why are you laughing?"

"Are you kidding me!"--he slapped me.

Wait ... what I was crying about?

"Gha ha ha ha ha!"

What? Crying because no one want to help me?

"Gha ha ha ha ha!" I laugh in sorrow.

"Something wrong with your head kid."

Why should cry when you can smile and laugh. "Gha ha ha ha ha ha!"

"Gha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!"

I laugh and laugh. I laugh to myself, I laugh because I'm so weak, I laugh because how pathetic my life is, I laugh because ... I only accepted it.

Sweeeeep!

My head spin, this time it's spin back.

I was back, back to the purify room, sit on the chair that binded me.

And the first thing I saw is that Doctor, Doctor Jack.

"Oh well, you already broke. I can't help you, sorry kid," said Doctor.

Nurseperson coming from the door. "So are you done yet Doc? It's been 5 minutes."

"Oh sorry, he already broke, it's impossible to fix it," answered Doctor.

"Oh, what we should do?"

"Just take him to the Eliminate room, and take him with other broken patients."

The Nurseperson become sorrow, even he pretends to not, I know what his true feeling. "Alright Doc, I take him out." Nurseperson opened the rope that chained my hand all the time on the chair.

And he wrapping me again with my clothes. He pulls me from the chair and takes me out the door.

He accompanied me on that dark corner. "Don't be sad Nurseperson," I said.

"What are you talking about?" Nurseperson wisped his eyes from the tears.

"Why you so sad about me Nurseperson? Don't you worry about me that going to die, because you were going to be dead too."

Nurseperson smiling a bit. "You are funny as always Derek."

"I'm happy, finally someone knows who is my real name." I'm smiled at Nurseperson.

"It's just not fair, you just a victim Derek."

"We all know what happen to victim Mr.Jonathan." Mr.Jonathan smiling at me.

"I'm sorry Derek, I can't do anything for you, I'm weak."

"It's okay, I knew what the condition." Tear's fell from his eyes and he huge me for the first time and maybe for the last time.

What's this? What's this feeling?

So sweet, so warm, so joy.

Is this happy?

Oh finally I feel it, a happy feeling.

At least, I'm happy after all.

The door of eliminate room has been seen, we come more near to the door, and Mr.Jonathan opened the door.

Well, I'm not really surprised for what I saw from behind the door, it's just an electric chair but more deadly. There are four electric chairs there, and that three of it was not empty, someone sitting on that. An old man.

A weird old man ....

Even for an old man.